that was enough for me to cry.

tsktsktsk,i am feeling damn confused now.damn it!

so i made the wrong mistake again,trusting someone who i am not very close to.someone who i don't know whether to trust or not.Oh God!tell me history won't repeat itself!

i don't like,i don't like,i really don't like this!

its the uncertaincy that is freaking me out.

no its not your fault,or any other people.it's my fault.

the few minutes where i was struggling,my inner self told me not to lie to everyone,most of all,myself.my outer self insist i should not be so honest.

why?i don't get it.i could have escape by lying!

but i didn't.

what to do?whats done is done.there is no use trying to pretend it has not happen.i shall focus on praying hard.