i just feel sad and feel like posting....

why does it always happens like that?

people show their love for me,

and i don't notice it until a while later(yes i am slow).

when i realise and felt lucky that people do care,

i start to love them very very much,

and trust them like they are myself.

then this is the time where they come in and take back all their love,

leaving me confused.

why does it always happens this way....

my happiness burst like bubbles whenever i realise how lucky i am.

i rather nobody cares in the very first place,

at least my expectation isn't high,

and that won't leave me as hurt.

i find it hard to trust anyone anymore.i really don't know what is going on on human's mind.i really can't make myself trust something that has left me that hurt before.nobody actually realise,i am hiding.hiding my true self completely from people who i don't know enough and trust.all i need is time.when i realise that people can be trusted,i slowly open my heart.but the more i let my true self outside of the world,the more i feel distant from them.so what to do?i feel insecure.they don't realise anything do they?i should have realise earlier.there is nothing in this world that can open my heart.

like i said before,people don't realise how much damage they had done,intentionally or unintentionally.

whahahah

lols i seriously have nothing to do,so i decided to blog.

ok i shall blog about nurmatha =DD lalalas.

that day she was asking me whats my relationship with her.my first ans was,"oh..hmm..a person who is going to eat char siew pau??" then yesterday,during our phone conversation,she asked that question again.so we were trying to find ans.

ANS WE THOUGHT OF:

1)senior-junior

2)friend

3)good friend
4)best friend

let me clarify,we are not les.(i don't know if she got any special feelings for me,but i don't =p)haha because nurmatha was saying that many people were saying that we are les and stuff.== which is like so immature and no-depth.haha.

ok i shall now upload the part of the lastest letter where nurmatha thought of as our relationship:

this is seriously... *speechless*

haha.nurmatha i really hope you will seek medical treatment soon.i totally agree with ms.kaur,you are suffering from delusions. =pp

lols anyways,hai i miss my great one =(( nurmatha when are you going to reach home and when are you coming online?!

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!

LOLS today i super super super super happy =DD lalalas.

lols ok this morning i reached 2e6 at 6.50am then we kind of practice the dance with no music,which is like errr.... its like not everyone from the dance actually knew we had to come and practice.and lols anita scared me last night,i was sms-ing her to remind her to come to school early the next morning,and she went "I WANT TO BACK OUT."well then after a bit of slack practising,i went to 3e4 to look for nurmatha because yesterday it told her i was going to be in the studio.haha we passed each other the letters =DD

then at 7.20am,the ACES DAY thing started.upper sec was in the hall and lower sec was in the quadrangle.LOLS LOLS LOLS.then half of nurmatha's guys was at each venue.and the stage at the quadrangle is so funny,made up from canteen tables.so valerie was saying,"oh....i don't want to eat at the canteen again."hahaa.the half of nurmatha's guys with us was kiat hwee,damen,jingkuang and jiakang.hahaha.quite fun but i wasn't that hyper =pp

after that,performers were to go to 2e6 to wait for their turn.and just as we reached our classroom,we were told to go to the stage already.HAHAHA.1st item siahs!!!so we sat at the backstage there,and we saw the aerobics group dancing again.HAHA the full version.they are so cute larhs!then zhenyi was laughing and laughing,and was saying,"walau they damn cute!!"so i was like,"zhenyi arhs~~~why are you blushing huh?(touching her cheek)why did you blush ah?"in a "suan"ing tone.hahaha.their ending was so funny,they ran inside the backstage.hahah.lols then i saw jiahao and today he seemed more hyper than that day nurmatha said he was emo-ing.at least today he said hi back.then soon the emcees for the program spoke.

after the speech of appreciation by zhenyi,our dance started.after that the light turned off and we were like OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!!!some of us were really nervous(haha i am excited).then yes the performance came out quite alright i think,except for a few things like wrong position.and what we planned failed...the rest of our class stooding at the galleria there and was suppose to shout with us but then they didn't catch the cue.and the boys...no comments.they were suppose to drag mr.seng and ms.norli up quickly,and in the end only mr.seng came up slowly.LOLS LOLS LOLS but still fun =DDD

after that were the performance and stuff which i feel like narrating.so sorry =p but haha i want to say about the 2e4 performance.LOLS i love the winnie the pooh!so cute!!!LALAS.and the teachers sang well too =DD

after that i was looking for nurmatha,but mr.seng wanted us to go back class first to check our tables hahaha.then after mr.seng checked that nothing was left,i went with anita and xiaochen.we went down and up again to the staff room because xiaochen wanted to pass up something.then i saw brigitte and alex.then alex said,"ei!!!nurmatha is finding you!mr.seng told her that you went home so she left." and i was sad =[[[ this is the first time our magnetism didn't work you know.i wanted to speak to her!!and wish her good luck for her exams =[[[

lols then anita and i went back to our primary school.DAZHONG PRIMARY SCHOOL.its so dumb lorhs,we waited damn long before we could go in because there is a new principal this year.we reached there at like 11 going 12,and we waited until 1pm before we could go in.hhaah then we went in,found mr.lee and ate the cake that cynthia they all had went to buy.then we went round the school.HAHA the canteen is so small!!the hall is small too!!well our primary school isn't big in the first place.haha then we took a few photos but she hadn't upload them =(( we went to the hall and i saw them acting.LOLS they are good!!really!because they have a proper trainee...and they aren't from the drama club,i think they came together to participate in a competition.haha then we played a 'friendly' captain ball match.6/1'05 V.S. 6/1'06. LOLS LOLS LOLS.and this game was really casual,we didn't even cared the rules and didn't count the score.LALALAS so fun =DD

and then anita,me and charmaine(she is from swiss too!from badminton.anita's junior.)they wanted to find mr.wee to do CIP.haha and mr.wee actually knows swiss cottage's mr.micheal!ahhaha.what a small world.then he was asking telling them they can come and guide the badminton members,and he said,"drama needs help too."in a not-serious manner.lols.ldds isn't as properly trained.haha so anita and i went home=DD

haha i am feeling very happy about what happened today.but,i couldn't contact nurmatha =(( the great one i miss you!!i called her house and i was told she isn't home yet.no idea what time her exams ends =((( i hope she will call me back because i left my name.=D

LOLS.anita and i held hands.HAHAHA i can suan jingkuang liaos.lalalas.

hai...holidays is coming.i don't want!!! =(((((

WHAT THE FREAK!

WALAU!idiot!daryl sent me a stupid file named "a touching story"(its in chinese),and i half-read.in the front was like saying what someone awnted to commit suicide or what thing,so i asked"is it chained letter??"and he said no.so i trusted him.it was a power point slide thing.so its in full-screen mode.i didn't read all of the content cause it was saying about some digusting things,so i kept on pressing.then the last slide was a stupid picture.the face was white and i saw blood.my first reaction was to turn away from the screen,it took me a millisecond to realise what i saw and i jumped up,and i caused the keyboard to drop.

then its like so coincidentally,just now during my tuition,mr.lim was telling a few of the boys,who were scaring another girl with ghost clips and stuff,not to do it.seriously,this is no joking matter.LOLS i was totally freaked out.so don't ever send me those kind of stuffs(to daryl:again),or i can promised i will be cursing you everyday.LOLS.i am just that scared.and now is the 7th month,so DON'T.

LOLS

haha.nurmatha asked to call her because kind of hesitated in telling her something.

ok lols its regarding the strike-outs in one of my post.

i hesitated,because i am not sure yet.

LOLS.i am wondering how come i am so indecisive this time.

maybe i will adapt that dare-to-admit spirit,and be more like a leo.

but i really don't know how to handle.

lets see how it turn out first =D

nurmatha where are you???

lols.today morning i walked to the sec 3 block,and found nurmatha's seat empty(lols i didn't walk into the class).so i walked further and went inside 3e5,because i heard alex's voice.haha.she was talking to johnathan.think they were revising science or something.so i asked alex where nurmatha is and we both realised she was not coming to school.so then i spent my morning with alex.LOLS so 暧昧.（lols how to explain to eng??erm,like for example nurmatha and KH is under that kind of status.something you can rumour or about.i think =p)

lalas.then i wrote yet another letter for nurmatha so she is expecting two letters tomorrow =D

hai feeling so sian now,friendster in under maintanance.=((

LOLS.let me talk about what happened today.hmm...ah!lols today we had literature and ms.kaur explained to us about upper sec lit.i am really considering taking it.hahaha.since nurmatha is taking it too.changfeng kind of confirm want take lit,ziyong said hes confirmed,and joanne is still considering.hahaha.then ziyong was calling changfeng selfish because he wants to take bio lit.ziyong thinks changfeng is stopping people from going to bio class.haha.which is quite logical.

ACES day stands for All Children Exercising Simultaneously.lols we are not children!!we don't celebrate children's day anymore!and i really wouldn't call the dance exercising.hahaha.

haha after school valerie and i were like,"should we do our art?"then we decided to go and paint the fish and pebbles because i wanted to stop by 3e4 to confirm nurmatha really not in school.there is a possibility she will be late,though its not high.kailin,geok,zhenyi and val need boxes to store their books,so kailin,val and i went to look for boxes.on our way back i saw 3e4 people,so there is no use stopping by at 3e4 anymore.valerie and i felt we could do our art at home since we can hand it in during the holidays,we left after that.hahaha.

lols when i reached home i called nurmatha.and she said she was thinking whether she should call me because she didn't know what time i dismissed.hahaha.but i called her first =D then we chatted and chatted.lalalas=D now shes online. =DD

hai my progess report =( the underlined score of my geography. *sobs*

haha i am happy =D i got 31/34 for maths test 3.whahaha.and today we had test 4 and paper 2 of english(speech).LALALAS.

MORE QUIZ

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

whahahas.this is pretty true....

You True Love Will Find You

When it comes to love (and life), you totally put yourself out there. It's very easy for you to find love - and for love to find you. The best part is, you're never even actively looking to meet someone. You're just out there so much that love always seems to come your way.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

What Marion Means

M is for Musical A is for Artistic R is for Romantic I is for Innocent O is for Optimistic N is for Natural

What Does Your Name Mean?

You Are Strength

You represent both fiery energy and steadfast will. You are innocent and naive - yet unafraid and undaunted. Perhaps you don't have the most powerful physical strength... But your mental powers make up for any amount of muscle. Your fortune: Lately, you have been a pillar of ethics and moral strength. And while things may be difficult, your faith in yourself will come through. You may need to conquer the animalistic nature of yourself or others, with gentle force. Although this may seem like the darkest hour for you, victory is near.

What Tarot Card Are You?

You Are a Yellow Crayon

Your world is colored with happy, warm, fun colors. You have a thoughtful and wise way about you. Some people might even consider you a genius. Charming and eloquent, you are able to get people to do things your way. While you seem spontaneous and free wheeling, you are calculating to the extreme. Your color wheel opposite is purple. You both are charismatic leaders, but purple people act like you have no depth. LALALAS

What Color Crayon Are You?

Your Birthdate: August 2

You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move. It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone. Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4 You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

LOLS.i totally agree!

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows. You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love. For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding. You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run. Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

feel so sian~~~ =(

i am feeling so damn confused now....i am at the cross road of my life =(
my heart seems to have decided on something,but,its as though i cannot get use to the idea...
so what should i do??
i think i should follow my heart =D
but still,it all seems so wrong...
OH MY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

hai~~i feel so confused,and weird.i know right from the start,i get bored easily.like for example, i am watching a drama series,the story is so boring that everything can be predicted and there isn't anything surprising or something,i will stop watching the show.but can you actually compare something as wonderful as love to something like a drama show??its logical,but its ridiculous too.i mean,i know all these while it had been infatuation,so now what?another infatuation??

LALALAS.today morning i went to 3e4 again to find nurmatha,and we were holding hands as usual.then jingkuang was like asking,"whats so good about holding hands???" LOLS.so the great one was like,"hmmm maybe you should ask -----."LOLS.and ya she passed me her letter =DD

so during lessons i wrote a letter for her and wanted to pass to her during recess.and during recess,i gave another scream when i saw her.HAHAHHAA~~opps.

haha then it was art lesson.when i walked past her class,she gave my yet another letter.then today for art,ms.ong didn't came to take us,it was MR.SENG.whahaha,our boss =D so i was asking him what class he was going to take after our art lesson,when actually i knew the answer.haha.cause 3e4 is supposed to have social studies at that time.then i asked if he knew nurmatha,and he was like,".....OH NURMATHA!yaya i know her."LOLS i feel so lame~~~

then valerie was telling that she added jia hao a long time ago,which is last year.and she reminded me about someone's crush.LOL LOL how can i actually forgot that man!

when we were on our way back to our class nurmatha came out of class and talked to me again.LALALA.then after that i wrote a letter which i failed to pass to her.=p

the rehearsal for the teachers' day was at 2.30pm.then we went there and dance for one time and we were allowed to go.=DD

when i reached home i called nurmatha and wasn't at home.after that she called me and we chatted.HAHA i forgot to write in my previous post that nurmatha said she cried on the bus yesterday.OH POOR THING =(( she said she was sad haha because she was alone going home.then just now we chatted on stuffs that i couldn't remember.LOLS maybe because today she isn't that hyper(shes sick...oohh so sad...=[ ),and i am not as hyper as usual too.=[[[[[[

ya i shall end my post here.BYE!!~~~

why do i feel that people are disliking me...ahh whatever...

LAST DAY OF CCA BEFORE THE SEP HOLIDAYS =D

lols i couldn't think of anymore titles,so i decided to out it anyhow-ly. =p

well,today,it is a wet day.it was raning heavily in the morning when i was walking to school.then there was the geo test.LOL.during the morning assembly,xiaojun was like,WTH i studied for 4days and she just told us its an open-book test yesterday!in the end the test was so cool.

during the geography lesson,ms gayatri was like letting us revise for half an hour.initially,the test contained 7 qns,the first five were based on maps and the last two were essay question.with the first look of the first page of the test,shin chieh and i were like,"she printed it from a assessment book....=="then soon she realised she printed the wrong map and told us to skip question 1-5,leaving us with only ONE essay question because we were asked to pick one.hahha.after that valerie and i were saying,"luckily we never WASTE our time revising."i mean like,is there anything to revise???

lols during pe lesson,we were doing the aerobics again.i was finding nurmatha because she promised she will come =D and she brought ruth with her =D when i saw them i gave a little scream.LOL LOL LOL.haha excited to see the great one =p after that i saw nurmatha's guys at the back of the hall at the side there standing and watching(which nurmatha bet they were looking at SOMEONE,one more thing to "suan" another SOMEONE about.)LOL LOL LOL.

and finally my dear dear nurmatha gave me a letter.when i opened my pencil case,i was like,"OMG!"she came to my class during pe lesson and placed the letter there.LOL LOL LOL.after that i couldn't stop myself from writing another letter.

then after school during lunch i found the seniors and then after they finished eating,we went up to the sec 3 block,and stopping at 3e6.then nurmatha kept the third letter in her file and went,"this is my collection."and i replied,"i only have to collect...."LOLS nurmatha please write more letters=DDD

haha so cca started and all the blablabla things were carried out..........................
then haha they were playing this little game for.firstly,yanli drew an outline of her left hand.on the last finger is three ans to the question "what do you want to be in the future?" second last is the three person you will want to marry.third finger,three ans for number of children you want when you grow up.fourth finger is where you will want to live in(HDB-flat,condo.,etc....),and last but not,the thumb,the arrangement of poor,,average,rich.after answering those question,yanli drew spiral on the paper until the person says stop.and those she will count the line,and she will count and strike off until one ans is there for each question.nurmatha's one was not accurate because yan li did it wrongly.HAHA but mine is accurate because min li did it for me =D (except for the one nurmatha one-sidedly place the name for me.)
so here is my future
i will become a celebrity,
marry (this isn't accurate at all!nurmatha filled that space for me!!),
have two children,
live in a bungalow,
and will be rich =D
its like what i wanted(except the nurmatha filled in part) =DD

the great one was then saying about the lunar eclipse which the TODAY newspaper claims we will see a red moon on 5.25pm.so after cca,brigitte,alex,me,nurmatha,yanli and akanksha stayed.in the end the moon was covered by the cloud and we couldn't see anything.brigitte stayed just because of the moon,alex,me and nurmatha kind of stayed because of the moon and the aerobics dance by the nurmatha's guy,because today the teachers are learning it.so we were asking if brigitte wanted to watch and she was saying to nurmatha,"WHERE THE RED MOON?if you can show me the moon now i will stay!"LOL LOL LOL.in the end we walked up to the hall just to see for a couple of minutes and on the way we saw mr.micheal who encouraged us to see.after they danced,the teacher who is scared of balloons came to chase us away.thats so bad =(

LOLS i promised nurmatha i will find the high school musical dcd for her,before i realised the dvd is with my cousin.haha i rock man!but i will still go to her class to find her =D

haha nurmatha kept saying about her higher mother tongue examinations on friday after the taechers' day celebration,and i replied,"don't worry i will bring you luck on that day!"come on!your pau is dancing how you not have luck with you man!at first i was telling her that tomorrow we are having a full-dress rehearsal,but i forbid her to go.haha i want her to watch with full attention on friday =DD lalalalas.

LALALA SUPERSTITIOUS STUFF AGAIN~~

Leo - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious! You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you Your negative traits: You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruelly break their heart Your ideal partner: Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often Your dating style: High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur. Your seduction style: You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things Passionate. You really get into any intimate act. Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner. Tips for the future: Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed. Learn to love your partner for who they are - not how they help advance your life. Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog. Best color to attract mate: Gold Best day for a date: Sunday

What's Your Love Profile?

(got this thing from val's blog =D)

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable. You tend to blend into your surroundings. Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends. You believe that you live a virtuous life... And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye. As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

You Are Rock

Powerful and overbearing, you intimidate people with your presence. People know they can't push you around, and they respect that. Deep down, you are calm, confident, and unmovable. You take everything pretty seriously, and you think deeply about all aspects of your life. You tend to feel smothered by paper people. You don't mind crushing the spirit of a scissors person. When you fight, you: Use all of your strength If someone makes you mad: You're likely to throw something at them

Are You Rock, Paper, or Scissors?

You Are the Super Ego

While some people may think first and act later... you often don't act at all. You rather be safe than sorry, and you take ethics pretty seriously. Like everyone, you have some pretty crazy desires. But unlike everyone, you restrain yourself. You have high standards for your own behavior. And you happily exceed them.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

You Fight Fair

For you, a fight is not about proving you're right. Instead, it's about discussing and resolving difficult issues. You don't look for fights, but you don't avoid them either. You realize that clearing the air is good, when you go about it the right way.

Do You Fight Fair?

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. In love, you are quiet and sweet yet very passionate. You love easily. You have an underlying love for all living things, and it's easy for you to accept someone into your heart. At work, you do best in an unconventional position. You express yourself well and can work with almost anyone. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. How you see yourself: Sympathetic, kind, and communicative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Incompetent, insecure, and overly sensitive

What's Your Personality Type?

&....
THE END!
GOOD NIGHT!

DANCE REHEARSAL

LOL LOL.today is as sian as usual.only that this morning i went to find nurmatha.LOLS.haha and like valerie was accompanying me to find her primary sch senior.haha.then i was telling nurmatha that i didn't bring someone there because that person haven't come to school yet and she was like shouting to jingkuang,"ohh (that person's name) haven't come."

haha then after that valerie was telling me how fun my seniors are.WHAHAHA of course,they are MY seniors=D

today there was the rehearsal for the teachers' day.HAHA feel so lucky to be able to perform man!!=DDthen before the rehearsal,which starts at 2.15pm,we were in the dance studio practising.and the i was like going with anita to the ladies because she hadn't change to her pe t-shirt.LOL then its like what a coincidence,i saw the great one.its like so funny.this morning i wrote a letter to her,which i most probably could only pass to her tomorrow.in the end i could pass the letter to her today =D whahaha.there is just this natural magnetism between us that draw us together=D

LOL LOL actually just now my mood was like SIAN.then nurmatha just called me.i think it has become a daily routine for us to chat on the phone.WHOO~~~i became happy=D then we were talking about the content of the letter and stuffs.she was asking how come so many people in my class knows and what exactly happened when i said i saw her class guys.its was like our class was having music and we were walking to the music room.we stopped at the bookshop because valerie wanted to buy a new shorts(her shorts was dirtied by the syo soy bean drink).then i was talking to her when she told me to turn around.HAHA and there they are,nurmatha's guys.lols then its like the last one walking was jia hao and i waved to him,but he gave me that are-you-saying-hi-to-me look,before waving to me.LOL.then i was telling nurmatha that i tagged her blog and she was like,"what did you write???"LOL LOL.so i told her that i was kind of replying to someone's tag,and she demanded what THAT PERSON tagged.when i told her,she went,"WHY DID YOU TELL ME WHAT HE WROTE???OMG".LOLS.isn't it she who asked me to tell her???

then she was telling me how she teased jingkuang,how in the morning they saw that person and then turned to each other and laughed together.LOL.they were like having a teasing duel,nurmatha teasing jingkuang about that person,and jingkuang teasing nurmatha about me,which is so impractical.LOL.then nurmatha told me about her CME lesson,when the teacher told a story about a guy selling char siew pau.when nurmatha heard her darling pau's name,she was why,out of all buns,its char siew pau?then her eyes and jiahao's eyes met and they laughed together.LOLS nurmatha,just how many people do you want to laugh together with??

she then said she is very excited about tomorrow.haha.and she don't have a reason.then she said tomorrow the aerobics group is teaching the teachers how to dance,and she was telling me to imagine a few teachers dancing the dance.she thinks it will be very cool,but i thought it will look real out of place.

AH!anyways she said she definitely will online at 8.30pm and i told her i will be waiting for her =D LOL though its like usually my brother will use after i use,but today he has his basketball practice so i pray hard its damn tiring that the first thing he do when he reach home is go to sleep and let me enjoy the computer=D lols opps.

OH NO.i just realise this week is a busy week.its just the first day then we already have loads of homework(which i don't know the due date.LOL).then theres still all those projects.ARGHHH~~~ don't tell me next week is holiday i should be happy! because i don't like holidays! the first thing i will definitely miss is the great one.LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL.(holidays got cca right??)cca time is not enough larhs~~~

by the way,i am wondering what we will be doing for cca tomorrow.we didn't get in the teachers' day thing,so what are the activities planned for us???haha.nevermind,as long as the great one is there,char siew pau is fine =D

you know what,my bro is kind of addicted to X-family!so weird.and he has watched more than i did,so i was damn surprised.HAHA

did you realise,that normally,the thing i actually post got little connection with the title??its like i am talking about nurmatha on every single post.like,why don't i just put all my titles the great one LOL LOL.kidding.


LOLS nicholas sent this photo to me.LOL LOL.my hair is so damn messy and i looked so tired.its like my eyes are closed! =((( lols haha.but this photos is taken,and it has been a long time since i place any photo,so i uploaded it hahaha=D

THE SHOPPING

lols haha.i changed my blogskin =DD so happy =D i was like WTH when kailin told me she saw the two person picture as i decided to change my blogskin immediately =D

ok well today its like we went to shop luhs.and we went back after dinner at like 8 something.

today i also got a bit kind of emo.HAHAHAHHAHA.then i walked home feeling emo.when i reached home i was talking on the phone with kailin and still emo-ing.suddenly while we were chatting,i got another call-in,so i was like...hmmm...is it my bro's friend?then i suddenly think theres a possibility that its nurmatha.and sure it is.she chased away all the emo-ness. =D

her first word was the same,always.negative things.like "i don't like you marion!","i am going to kill you!" and stuff like that.hahaha.she was asking me why did i wrote the conversation out hahaha.i was like cause i don't break my promsie =D she said luckily i didn't include HIS name in my previous post.LOL LOL.then we were talking and talking and talking....blablabla...and she was telling me to include something that i promised i will forget(haha nurmatha what did you say?i really forgot!!!).she told me that she was online the whole day and she had been calling my house for many times.actually while shopping today,i was like,should i give nurmatha a call?i think she will call me.but in the end i realised i didn't bring her no. out with me.too bad =((

and this girl arhs,you cannot believe her words.she told me on friday that she would online which she DIDN'T,and she told me yesterday she won't online and yet she DID.haha anyways she said she forgot to post a post saying why i am not a bitch,so she promised she will post it tomorrow.so let's see if she breaks her promise anot.

haha shes happy for me that my class has got into the audition =D she said she can see me dance.she told me she will stare at me and asked all her class to stare too since i am so popular.== NOT FUNNY!!! well anyways,i told her maybe i will go and find her tomorrow in her class before morning assembly and perhaps, if i can,i will drag someone along,which is like almost impossible. hahaha

PHONE CALL

lols hmm.... i woke up at 11 this morning =D thats early! i wanted to use the computer to blog as i promised to nurmatha before my bro wakes up and use the computer and in the end he has tuition.if i know i would had slept longer =((

i couldn't sleep last night and was rolling on my bed for an hour or so.it think i slept at around 2 going 3. LOL i was thinking about something.somehow i was caught in a dilemma.i am guilty of not telling the great one something and yesterday i kind of decided to tell her when shes online.but this morning i woke up and realise theres no need to tell her. == i wasted my sleeping time on deciding something that the next morning i rejected so easily.

lols a moment ago,zhenyi just called me and told me the good news! =D WE GOT INSIDE THE AUDITION! LAALLA but i don't know why i am not very hyper or surprise.maybe in my heart i already treat our class get in liaos =DDD lalalalalalalala.

well anyways,i haven't reach the whole purpose of the post.ok lets start the story.yesterday after i offline-d,nurmatha called me.first she asked me was i sad and stuff like that.LOL nurmatha,even if i was sad,receiving a call from you should have made me happy.LOL LOL LOL(don't ego first,wait till you finish this post *evil laughter*)then she was telling me about people's blog being so emo and then telling me about that she can tease 'someone' in her class about 'someone' (the thing i was thinking about last night was about that 'she'.haha)

*we were talking about campus superstar*
nurmatha:"who you support?"
me:"keely,who you like?"
nurmatha:"i like keely.who is the other one other than shaun,keely and zhengning?"
me:"benjamin."

*then she was talking about her class people support who and stuff like that....then she was telling me about the thing that happen yesterday that she could tease someone about*
nurmatha:"actually i wanted to tell you just now in msn but i was busy chatting with many people and that was the reason why it took me very long to reply you."
me:"and who are the people you chatted with??"
nurmatha:"oh you and brigitte."
me:"wow thats a lot of people!"(lalala obviously i am tricking her into telling me she chatted with her lastest rumour)
nurmatha:"no you see, i only said important people that i chatted with.so brigitte and you are important."
me:"oh really??~~then how about who are the dangerous people who will read your blog??"(lols i asked her this question in msn and she said HIS NAME first.)
nurmatha:"*trying very hard to change topic*then how about you? you support keely and HE support keely too."
me:"oh.WHATEVER."
nurmatha:"you two like keely AH HA HA HA."
me:".....you like keely too,remember?"

thats a dumb reason,seriously,i think you can do better than that.....but theres another dumber reason.

nurmatha:"you said hes cute for like so many times. hahahha"
me:"i where got say many times??"
nurmatha:"you told me how cute he was after cca when we were walking to the gate there and in the classroom...."
*before she finishes*
me:"didn't you read me blog! i said he act cute ok!you got say hes cute too."
nurmatha:"no i didn't.you kept saying hes cute."
me:"i wrote in my blog 'how many times did nurmatha say hes cute?' and thats uncountable.you said a lot more than i did."
nurmatha:"*excitedly*thats because hes my classmate and that hes really cute!!"
me:"OHH!you finally admitted you said hes cute!"
nurmatha:"*excitedly*thats because hes really damn cute what!"
me:"then why did deny you said hes cute."
nurmatha:"*excitedly*oh but hes really very cute!!"
me:"there you go again...I TELL YOU I WILL DEFINITELY WRITE A POST ABOUT OUR CONVERSATION!HAHA"

nurmatha,your reasoning rocks man!then after that she gave me another reason to tease her.

nurmatha:"*excitedly (again)*seriously hes damn cute larhs!you know he sits where right?then sometimes when i look at that direction and he look at my direction,when we see eavh other,we will just suddenly burst into laughter!
me:"oh really?HAHAHA you gave me another evidence to tease you!!!"
nurmatha:"....."

the great one's power is decreasing.i think her char siew pau absorb all her intelligence,leaving her so dumb.LOL LOL LOL LOL.YOU ROCKS NURMATHA!

oh hai next week sunday is the photo shoot for the tuition centre and today we are going to shop for clothes and stuff.meeting mader at raffles mrt at 3.15pm.seriously don't feel like going out =((

ARHHH~~!!

nurmatha just scared me by telling me that shes been using mozilla firefox to view my blog!!!its not supposed to be like what you saw!!i have better taste!

this is what i see:

AIYO!people are hurt without people realising =((( you see what i meant in one of my post?and i don't know which side to help...one was the position i had been before,and i am to make someone feel better.LOLS.

HAI~~~

hai i am so damn disappointed.my dardar geok never link me!!!how is that possible!!and then arhs,i JUST realise my darling sweetFOUR tag at other people's blog and never even come to mine!ohh sad life =((

aiyoyo.why do i receive so little tag arhs?the daily hits shows that there is like more than ten people.so what this means?you mean that some strangers just accidentally came to my blog?oh thats sad too =((

ah whatever...if your don't feel like liking me,then go on.because it is not going to bother me the very least bit...

haha anyways just now earlier in the evening,nurmatha called me when i was bathing.so i asked yee jeng for nurmatha's number and jeng told me about ldds' dance not getting into the audition.lols lols lols.and she told me our class will most probably get in because 2e4 also got in=Din the end when i called nurmatha she told me she called because she wanted to tell me about the audition.&& she said she will be online at 8 something,but i think she went off already =(( can we stop missing each other?lols why can't be using the com the same time??haha

oh no...hmm is the emo virus spreading so fast??

LOLS cca is always fun

hahaha.its funny today.our class last lesson was d&t and kailin and me was walking back to classroom.guess who i saw at the staircase at the hall there?lols.its the great one!haha shes with alex.and when i saw nurmatha and she saw me,we were like laughing LOLS.then alex shouted to me that before that,nurmatha was saying,"char siew pau char siew pau char siew pau" haha.

then after i returned to class,i went down to canteen with geok.then we were walking to put our bowls,then we actually wanted to go back classroom,not when i saw alex.

me:"eh!alex!wheres nurmatha!"
alex:"lols there!!" *pointing to the bench that i was sitting a while ago.*

LOL LOL.then after that geok had to go to cca so i accompanied my seniors to eat.then nurmatha pulled me to 3e4 with alex(because shes in 3e6 and she wanted to take her bag.)so nurmatha and i were like sitting down in 3e4,while holding hands.(lols seriously,you don't call this les).then nurmatha' classmate,jingkuang and another person were like holding hands also.then after that,people were gathering behind at the classroom and doing some sort of gay things to tease nurmatha.(haha i don't think i want to risk my secret.)then jiahao so (act-) cute(hmm how many times have nurmatha said hes cute?uncountable),he was going for cca already and nurmatha was saying goodbye to him so i said goodbye also.and his reaction was like,hmph! in a kiddish manner.haha.after that we proceeded to 3e6.

haha the ruth jiejie is so cute=D then she was asking how long nurmatha and i have been together.and nurmatha was like saying that yestesday night in msn we broke up and patched in blog,broke up in blog and patched in msn again.LOL!so les.... after that we went to the 1n1.and nurmatha,stupidly,told me about HER NEW RUMOUR.lols lols.

then today's cca wasn't that interesting.we did the dance.hai i seriously enjoy and like our 2e6 class dance alot better.its so stupid,we got scammed.they said we won't be auditioning,then today mdm tang wants to see us dance.luckily it is videotaped,videotaped by glen.haha when nurmatha saw glen she was like hiding behind me? because glen was trying to shoot her.HAHA.its like,you think my height can hide you?haha.then ruth was also trying to shoot nurmatha and me holding hands and stuff like that.haha.

today cca ended at 5 plus.they were discussing about the costume thing.why can't we just settle with a black tee and jeans like that time?they were making it really complicated.hai~~~i really wish we don't get inside audition. =p though i will be sad,we did put effort in the whole dance thing.

5 something,its too early.and nurmatha was telling me for don't-know-how-many-times she is very happy today.and since i am pretty hyper too,we didn't want to go home.haha and giselle was there too =D

we were like standing at the balcony there.LOL LOL LOL LOL.nurmatha!you had too much slips of the tongue.i shall present to you the slips of the tongue of the day!specially for nurmatha

1st slip of tongue
(giselle was asking about the school team and non-sch team of the basketball people)
nurmatha:"those in red are in the school team."
me:"huh...most of your class guys are wearing blue."
nurmatha:"ya my class only two person in the school team.damen and jingkuang"
me:"oh.then how about YOUR GUY?"
nurmatha:"yes he isin....WALAU!! *speechless*"

haha.by then me and giselle were laughing like hell.so she finally admitted that hes her guy.but wait lets hear her excuse.

nurmatha:"NO!!you hear me first!*she started cornering me* i didn't know you are talking about YUFENG.i thought you are talking about damen and my class boys!AHH NO!!"

hmmm thats a really good excuse....

2nd slip of tongue
*there is this guy called gerard or something walking on the first floor*
nurmatha:"hi!"
*gerard was saying something and giselle and i couldn't get what he said.but if nurmatha didn't reacted like very agitated we wouldn't have ask gerald to repeat.*
giselle and i:"hey hey hey!what did you say?can you please repeat?"
*gerard was talking about nurmatha's latest rumour*
giselle:" whos that -----(ahaha think it is better not to write the name)"
*then i was telling her who that person is and blablabla,when suddenly...*
me:"shall we go to the CO room??"
nurmatha:"yes,sure....NONONO!(lols evidently that person is from CO)"

haha then nurmatha was so funny,she suddenly squated down and kept quiet for a while.HAHA.LOLS.but she still explained in the end.(anyways giselle didn't know why i was talking about CO)

giselle:" ??? why did you want to go to the CO room??"
nurmatha:" *act calm* cause arhs, i want to see melody.(is the spelling correct?)"
giselle:"ohh i miss her too...."
me:"lols nurmatha!don't lie larhs!"
nurmatha:"*cornering me again...* it was a slip of tongue!i thought you were saying that we should go back to classroom...."
*before she says finish*
me:"how many slips of tongue do you have today??"
giselle:"ya it couldn't be such a coincidence."
nurmatha:"really its a slip of tongue!i really thought you were referring to somewhere else...."
*i cut in again*
me:"how many time can you hear wrongly nurmatha!"

lols.hmm..actually there aren't that many slips of tongue.if you want to include that nurmatha accidentally-on-purpose(here i mean she accidentally let me know about her rumour when she want to tell me a story on purpose.=D) told me about kiat hwee as her rumour. oh no.opps =P

haha i am so happy.haha.i think i am driving the great one crazy soon.LOL LOL LOL.

nurmatha is so damn crazy about her class...she was feeding me all things about her class,the story of her kiat-hwee blog,the story of the quarrel between andrew and ms.yeo,the story of jia hao's handphone,waaa she just can't seem to stop.and then she was telling me that almost all of the people in her class(mostly guys)knows about me.oh i feel so famous.LOLS kidding(i need a anti-ego injection).actually i am not that surprised because some people whom i don't know also know me.(duh,its all thanks to nurmatha....) for example today during CME when we were in the library and i saw yan li.

*she was showing me a friend of hers*
yanli:"ya this is the pervertic friend i said."
qamarina:"hi!"
me:"oh hi!"
qamarina:"*talking to yanli*oh so thats marion char siew pau."
yanli: *laughs*

LOLS.now people know me by my nickname.haha nurmatha do you remember how that nickname exist???lols hahaha don't think we need a recap.

WHAHAHA this whole post is almost all about nurmatha.OH YA i nearly forgot one thing.while we were walking to 1n1 before cca,nurmatha was telling me about when its the SEVENTH TIME that she thought i was around her and i really appeared in front of her.HAHA.and she told me she walked past me classroom during our maths test.LOLS.and you know what.i sensed her walking or something.its like everyday i hoped she will be walking pass my class,which means today too.and during maths test,i just suddenly while doing my paper,i suddenly had the nurmatha-might-walked-past-my-classroom thought during that period.because i thought having test is the only time i won't be looking up the window.LOLS.what do you call this?chemistry?6th sense?its just so creepy.

oh haha yesterday night,it was really hard to sleep.i fell asleep and a while later i opened my eyes and couldn't moved.i hate this =[[ cause i know if i move and sleep back again i will most probably get it again.and out of the many times,there was this one time when i heard 2 evil laughters.the first one was a female voice, and then a male voice.when i was truely awoke,i wasn't scared though.haha.because somehow i knew it was my imagination.i did hear the voices but i am sure its because i was feeling too tired.

i am waiting for nurmatha to online at 8 o'clock which she kind of promised(actually she didn't promise...).she said she will be online at this time.i am waiting for her to read my blog,say she wants to kill me and broke up with me,which in 5 minutes time we will definitely patch.because she is too talkative to stop talking to me.haha.it has been tested.in sch today we broke a couple of times too.LOL

CLASS DANCE!

LOLS.whahhaha.2e6 ROCKS LARHS.we learnt the dance in one day and i think it turned out pretty well =DD today's the audition and its like we waited for so damn long...we were the 3rd last team.haha.but i really really hope we can get in!!!!=DD

oh ya,well anyways,this morning i went to hall to find nurmatha and she told me whats she said she will tell me.yes,i am surprised.lols i saw her three times today!hahaha.and she told me that she told jana during recess i am there somewhere,then she saw me.LOL LOL LOL.

OH NO OH NO tomorrow's is the maths test! =[[[

hehe i didn't go tuition today.i was so damn tired.the dancing has resulted in body aches.those normally-not-used- muscle couldn't stand it.hai and i went to sleep when i reach home and i woke up at 8 plus.and WHOO,my brro is so damn pro,i was asleep in my room and he told my papa that i went to tuition.MERVYN YOU ROCK.... ==

allala ldds didn't have to audition because they promised to include us in.actually it should be this way,because they requested us to dance isn't it???lols haha.

i realise that i am stressed with really small and minor thing but am not when there are big things that is suppose to be stressful.OH what kind of human am i?

anything(here i really mean anything) we do can be hurtful to people around us,but we just didn't realise it.though it really have to depend on the sensitivity of that person.and well i am lucky,because for me,i am really very not insensitive.haha...

hai my eyes are tired...

DANCE DANCE DANCE

those people in the 2e6 dance thing,WE ROCK.waaaa....i dance until my legs are hurting.and tomorrow's the audition.oh no!but then we are cool ok,we did everything by today.so yeahs lets us ourselves a round of applause *applause*

i am really looking forward to tomorrow,because there is the auditions and HAHA the great one!but i really am not looking forward to school lessons(opps).and i haven't done my homework.....................................................................I DON'T LIKE HOMEWORK!

OH YA OH YA hey nurmatha!i am dying to tell you something!LOL LOL.you will be happy, i believe,since your pau is so happy.but i shall keep you in suspense until tomorrow =pp

i really don't like this.i am really looking forward to the audition,but thinking about doing homeworks and stuff like that,i am so turned-off...=(((

xx**8.23pm:walau.nurmatha just called me and told me to find her before assembly because she wants to tell me something.and she isn't letting any clues of what she is going to say.to make it dumber,she actually kind of guessed what i want to tell her.== not fun anymore.....TSKTSK NURMATHA!WHY ARE YOU SO CLEVER....!

I HATE YOU NURMATHA!

NURMATHA!!!
I REALLY,TRUELY,SINCERELY,TOTALLY DON'T LIKE YOU MAN!

lols later i will elaborate will i don't like nurmatha.lets talk about today.hmmm...whats there that is worthy to be blogged about?OH YA THE AEROBICS!lols haha.we learnt the steps today during our pe lessons.it is harder than it appears,but as long as you get the speed,it will be goood =DD haha.a pity that we were divided into houses.if not i wouldn't be left alone to self-high(as in those people around me not that high).if only that valerie is somewhere near me,at least we can high together!

ok now coming to the cca part.
TSK NURMATHA!SO WHAT IF YOU AREN'T BLUSHING!I WOULDN'T EVEN BE SURE THAT YOU ARE BLUSHING ANOT! (racist!lols relax,you have to admit that her skin tone is slightly darker than me right,bearing in mind i am consider fair.)
lols i think i am weird,i seemed like so hack-care in school when all the stuffs happened but suddenly i felt kind of not happy.hahha.
walau nurmatha!you are really very scary!i don't want friend you already!you are the kind of people who return other people 'kindness' by double(lols thats what the chinese test said about have to repay people's kindness)and obviously you did....but you aren't kind at all!i was the one kind to you!!!but you sabo me in the end...i really don't understand why you so scary.and why on earth are you trying to pair me up anyhow-ly?DON'T YOU EVER TRY AND SAY THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE.and its not fair!i only have one piece of information of you!

tsk the great one claims that this is my retribution.maybe i may have gone to far yesterday*laughs*,but then she's not allowed to make up stupid rumours without any evidence.
(lols i sound a bit too agitated,but nurmatha, you know why i am SO agitated,don't you??)

haha.anyways.yesterday was jia qi's birthday(oh sorry!i forgot to say happy birthday to you in yesterday post!!!)so as expected,we held a mini-party at the tuition centre.LOLS so funny larhs.when i reached the tuition centre,i saw the pizza hut delievery man walking out.then i went inside to call my papa cause i forgot to tell him today got somebody birthday so will be later.haha after that i suddenly remember i talk jia qi in msn that i will try to get him a kinder brueno(lols your favourite...),so i went to get it ahha.then yes we ate the pizza and cake.LALALA thanks ms soh!!i suggested that we each buy a cake for her during her birthday since she is paying for everyone's birthday cake.its actually quite expensive altogether.there are like 5 person.i think she has spent 100 bucks on us already =p THANKS YOU MS.SOH!

i realise i have another phobia beside the fear of height.i don't like the sight of grass that didn't not recieve sunlight for days and it goes a pale green.because now is the ghost festival then they placed the big big 'tin(aiya i don't know what you call it),RIGHT ON THE GRASS.and yestesday they removed it, its like whenever i pass by i will get goosebumps.imagine,there a whole patch of heathly green grass and suddenly there is one rectangle area with gress thats like greeish-yellowish-white.*shivers*(describing it scares me too)then just now when i walked to my tuition centre,in the first place i told myself not to walk towards there,but i suddenly was like,why on earth am i scared of such thing?so i walked along that path,and then i realise its nothing wrong to be scared of such thing,BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T LIKE IT!yesterday morning my mama still say its very cute.OMG would you actually call a bleeding wound cute? (lols i seriously thing the pale grass is more digusting than bleeding wound.....)

lols i just realise i hate having phobia,oh another phobia.....(hey there really is such phobia,but i forgot the actual name of it.=D)

hai i think i love simple things.now its getting too complicated that i really don't understand why it cannot be as simple as i want....

NATIONAL SCIENCE CHALLANGE!!

LOLS LOLS LOLS.this should be one of the fun-est day i ever had for long.=DDD
lallalalallala i LOVE excursion!

although today its not really like an excursion though.haha.BUT I ENJOYED MYSELF!and thats something to be happy about because i really think its long since i have the enjoy-feel back.hahaha.

ok lets talk from the start of everything.after school i went back home and spent hours on computer and dvd my mum rent. =DD i was suppose to meet nurmatha at 6pm in the canteen.LOLS.

when i reached school nurmatha was with jana.then after that giselle came and we went to the foyer.AND THEN WE BOARDED THE BUS!!!=D you should know the pathetic population of girls there.there were around 10 plus boys and only 5 girls(including yee jeng).and giselle and i were the only sec 2s!

haha the whole thing was pretty fun.there was chocolates! and candies =D then our team versus other team.though we lost(yee jeng, don't cry!!!),but i believed that our school team did really very well!!during the part where they present what they had prepared,2 out of 3 judges think we are the best alright!and in the very last round our school also the first!!LOLS.=D we,swiss cottage,a neighbouring school,are the 4th in the national science challange is already a very good thing we can be proud of!!!WHOOO WE ROCKS!

lols.haha.the journey back home on the bus was like chaos!everybody was so damn high!!!=D lols as usual,i was making fun of nurmatha again =p LALALALLALALA.don't kill me.LOLS.i was sitting beside nurmatha on the bus and i tried to prank her.WHAHAHAHA.the upper sec boys all went like crazy.hahah.they kept cheering and stuff like that.

but the only person who wasn't high at all was jana!don't know whats got into her =[[[ and that nurmatha,think of her 3e4 then can forget me and jana!!lols.haha.

NURMATHA!how arhs?my feelings is kind of fading.... =[ nevermind....

oh no....i suddenly feel so emo...haha my mind's in a state of confusion and i am feeling pretty lost about everything.i better don't continue writing, if not the emo will be more serious.haha i going to sleep now =D maybe tomorrow i will wake up and realise that our school hasn't gone for the semi-finals. =]]

MY DREAM PHONE!

lalalalalala.introducing,w850i!!!

if everything goes according to plan,i will most probably be getting a new phone on 3 sep!(actually 2sep can get but that day not free =[[[)

whahahaha. so happy!

if i have this phone,i can put all yuzhe's songs inside!!!

talking about yuzhe's songs,waaa,OMG he simply rocks!! =DD all of his songs are so damn nice!!

presenting ......

yuzhe's song award:

1st ever yuzhe's song:最爱还是你

best OH-SO-HIGH:爱我

first duet:爱在一起

best OH-SO-EMO: 分开以后

most pleasent to the ear: 造飞机

most man(lols?):继续爱上你

most look-on-the-bright-side lyrics:只欠一句 我爱你

best tune:吻到一公里之外

most interesting lyrics:回马枪

most soothing:冬季恋曲

lols yeahs all the songs are there!hahahhaa.i tried very hard to put them into different award,because some of them fall into many awards.hahaha.conclusion,all are super nice =D

YUZHE'S ALBUM'S SONGS!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!~~~~~~~
HAOTING.COM FINALLY HAVE YUZHE'S ALBUM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HIS SONG
YES ITS HERE!!!

though i can listen online,i am still gona buy his album =D

虽然地一首歌是听到腻的《最爱还是你》，
可是这次听起来一点也不腻，
还多了一阵莫名感动！！！！
(translating.....
though the first song is the listen-till-sick 《最爱还是你》[the one i love most is still you],
but this time it doesn't sound sick anymore,
there is still this additional out-of-where touch.)
SO TOUCHED SO TOUCHED!i feel (a bit) like crying. he waited for so long and its finally out!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`
YUZHE YOU ROCK,YOU RULE,YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!

LALA TODAY'S SAT!

hai life is getting hectic-er when the examinations are round the corner.all the teachers are so generously to give us so much projects.but we are easily contented,so we really really don't mind if there isn't any project.

oh today,again,its booked for project.GREAT.i woke up at 10 plus.*yawn* i miss my bed...well then yeahs the music project started from 1 plus to 5 something.hahah.we have to present it on monday.LOLS.hope it will turn up really fine. =D

NURMATHA REALLY REALLY DOESN'T LIKE ANYONE.
(you get my hint?anyways now we can conclude that she loves him because i don't remember his name is anyone,do you?)

before i went to do project,i got a call from the great one.LOL LOL LOL.she said she's gonna kill me(as if she can).like how many times she said that?hmmm around 6985614843 times?lols kidding larhs.as expected she called to talk about my previous post.because she wanted me to include that she loves him.(nurmatha if you are reading:relax!!!its just a joke)she was forcing,threatening,bullying me again=[

(halfway through the conversation,she was mentionting that yufeng will be going to NSC)
marion: "ohhh ohh ohh....i seee.thats why you want to go right?"
nurmatha: "marion,i really don't like you!"
marion: "lols anyways,can you pass me harry potter on monday?"
nurmatha: "i try,if my bag is light.i am not making any promises.

(soon we were talking about my post again.)
nurmatha: "MARION LOH AI LING!I THOUGHT YOU PROMISED NOT TO WRITE ABOUT YU FENG?!"
marion: "??did i write about yufeng("did you imagine that his name is there because you miss him too much?"i kept this question my heart) btw,you only made me promise that i had to write you don't like anyone and that 3e4 rocks."
nurmatha: "i don't care you have to edit it like the way i did in my blog if not your secrets won't be secrets anymore!"
marion: "ok.i try.i am not making any promises."
nurmatha: "haha."

honestly,COME ON,NURMATHA!do you really think that i will actually edit the post when i am having fun teasing you about him?i really think this is one of your weakest points.haha.but actually i am teasing you for the sake of teasing you,not because that i really think you like him or stuffs like that.but if you really dislike me saying you and him,i can always do you a favour by picking another boy from your basketball boys =DDDDDDDDDD i am such a kind soul!

(are you happy when this post nurmatha??)

well anyways,i wish to talk about the post about the "best" day.yeahs sweetFOUR the best group.i really love them,really,but not sometimes when we are doing project.i don't know why,but at times they do the assigned work late.for example,i said they have to get the draft of the newspaper article done by wednesday,so that we can work on the real newspaper itself on wednesday.they came on that day and kailin got it done,valerie done but really not enough words and yuan geok doing less than 35%.ok fine nevermind,i asked them to bring home to do and complete everything because the next day is the due date.and the next day two of them came with uncompleted articles.i mean like,there is so much time you can do it,i managed.i really don't know what they were doing the night before.using computer?i used too until eleven something.but i stay till twelve to complete.if you know you have project to do and don't want to stay up late then do the project first!i asked if they are staying during recess to complete,and they said they wanted to eat.NOW WHAT? you are not completing the articles the day before,not coming to school early PLUS NOT USING THE RECESS TIME TO DO,then like WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO DO IT.its not whether or not that you only left with a little bit,its the attitude.i can just tell them that they always give me that kind of i-don't-care-if-ALL-OF-US-fail.and since that works are assigned to you,you have the very responsibility to get it done.i do know i am selfish,i want myself to pass ok.but who is more selfish?me,who wants everyone from my team to pass,or people who wants everyone in the group to fail with them?

sometimes there is this debate in my head whether i am going too hard on them,though the opposition always wine.everyone is doing the i-tried-my-best-to make it equal amount of work.and it is agreed.i always ask if they could manage before i confirmed them.plus i dare say i am putting a little more effort and energy,and i have to check everybody's progess and remembering everyone task that the other member don't have to.ITS FAIR ENOUGH ISN'T IT?

during the last project discussion in school,they just get distracted so damn easily like as if one insect flew past is their business.(basically valerie and kailin)they go "ehh blablabla just walk past." and from that sentence they can drag until another person,another event and another completely different topic.and while my many attempts to get their brains back to our more important project are ignored,i kept silence.in the past i told myself i am lucky that i only need to speak up to get them back to project.but now,not anymore.though the silence game took quite longbut its quite effective.hey they ARE human(excluding the part how they treat project.)it didn't really take very long for them to realise that something is very wrong,and thats me asking this and telling them not to talk about boys.finally,they asked question.but i kept my replies short and sweet.and this time,i restrained from asking for their opinion,because when that happened they will know i am back to normal and they can be back to normal themselves.(which means continuing to get distracted without putting any effort to get in the discussion)

i really find the way they get distracted distracting.seriously,those guys groups are more efficient and faster than us.i really don't want it in the way when i do everything myself(my name's not lisa chan.)like for example,last time grouping,with xiaojun and lisa and without yuan geok,its always xiaojun and lisa,or sometimes me,doing the planning and stuffs like that.in the end,WE SPLIT.why?lack of communication.lisa changed things without actually informing us and we really felt that we don't have a place in the group.and now what i am trying to do is to avoid this kind of problem.why do you think that i want people not to get distracted and discuss the whole thing together?you think this is easy,with those boy-freaks in your group?if both one-person-do-it-all and everyone-gets-involved don't work,then the problems lies not with the others but THEMSELVES.i mean SERIOUSLY,if there is another group i can join,i will fly there.
i am already quite lenient ok.and if thats why they are taking advantages,you know i can always change for the "better".

to be frank i have a pretty nasty temper.but i always managed to suspress it before anything bad can happen.but according to the records,nobody has actually triggered it for a long time.(hmm maybe you should ask my brother how my temper is last time before i learnt to stop my temper=D)i used to be an impatience and really bad-tempered nasty brat,but as you can see,i am a wonderful angel.(yes its a joke.LOL)actually nobody will actually really realise whether i am angry or not,because i don't show my anger on my face(or maybe because i am pretending not to be angry.)i am really angry that time during the previous discussion(well my leo dictionary doesn't teach me weakling words like sad or disappointed.)in case my group's member haven't notice,during all the discussion,90% of them were the time i was angry.

haha you can see i have got a lot to say about project group ^^ honestly,i have more to say but some actually couldn't be put in words and that i think its enough =DD

there was this time i was wondering why catherine was scolding huoy jing for being weak.(she cried because of blablabla matter)i seemed to have found the reason because catherine has been through quite a number of things as i can see.(leos are fated to be like that,i read once)i felt the same way as catherine.some people just are so pathetic.they cry and stay emo and sad for like which seem a lifetime(its an exaggaration,they just spent to much time thinking about those sad stuffs.)seriously,PLEASE WAKE UP. THERE ARE MORE THAN MILLION PEOPLE IN THE WORLD WHO ARE MORE PITIFUL THAN YOU!before you start thinking about what you don't have,THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE FIRST.you may realise that you are actually more fortunate than you thought. =DDD

oh its a long post.i shall end here =D

WHY NURMATHA ROCKS

oh man.i am forced,threatened,bullied and spammed by the GREAT ONE.now tell me,how much can this person rock??

no choice,i have my weakeness too.i couldn't risk my secret flying around the school like mad.this is my last way of escaping.so this post is specially delicated to NURMATHA

WHY NURMATHA (thinks she)ROCKS:
1)she is the great one
2)she is charsiewpau-owner
3)she loves me
4)she is a harry potter fanatic
5)she has my secrets
6)she LOVES her 3e4 and 3e4 rocks(i didn't want to say this,but she requested for this....)
7)she told me about people putting her and yu feng together and now forgot that she said so.
8)i asked her why didn't she blog today and she said she was too tired when now she is awake and is off blogging because 3e4 won the aerobics thing....
9)she forced me to say she don't like anyone(except me.DUH!)
10)she claims that she is the best.
11)she told me everything i want to know,unless there is a really good reason(sounds like hagrid)
12)she is like dark chocolate with nuts.a prefect mixture of sweetness,bitterness and nut-ness.
13)she doesn't share with me her DEEPEST and DARKEST secret.
14)she gets really very agitated for i don't want know reason when i say her with yufeng.
15)I SAY SHE ROCKS SO SHE ROCKS!

NURMATHA!haha heres the fifteen perfect,sweet and wonderful reason why you rocks.my secret will be safe and you won't talk rubbish right?ok yeahs and don't forget your harry potter again if not i cannot make sure if i won't say you and yufeng again =p

xx**10.03pm: LOLS i just saw the video of the aerobics by 3e4.yes damen's group,the group that won.LOLS hahaha they so funny.i think i like it.for the first time,i really think 3e4 rocks.HAHA.(lols i can imagine nurmatha saying,"i told ya!")

YUZHE'S ALBUM!

mama!today's the date of yuzhe's album release!!OMGOMGOMG!tsk but don't know whether singapore got sell or not.i really doubt.

oh man.today isn't such a good day after all.i lost FOUR stationaries.
they are:
1)uni clicker mechanic pencil
2)uniball signo DX red pen
3)pilot G2 green pen
4)pilot G2 red pen

and i was really retard to discover at different that they were missing.firstly,because CME,i was using my pencil to write "tangyuzhe".when we came back from the library,i was like,"eh?wheres my pencil?"but i didn't really cared cause it was only one pencil.then during geography i realise my balck pen was missing too,and i was like waaa i only left with two pens(i didn't feel anything wrong).it was until maths then i fully realise my great loss!my green pen and re dpen were missing too!my green pen,i only bought it the day before yesterday and i haven't touch it before!!!I FEEL SO UNLUCKY!HALF OF THE STUFF IN MY PENCIL CASE IS MISSING....

hahaa anyways,today ldds was pretty fun because we were slacking!we did some kind of poem thing,then me,giselle,nurmatha and yan li were like chatting.LOLS the chat was very enjoyable.=DD then giselle,nurmatha and i were teasing each other like siao,when suddenly nurmatha couldn't stand us saying HER and HER GUY,so she made a deal with giselle that she won't tease her to giselle doesn't tease her.(in the end giselle and i agreed to tease her with other people too.)anyways,giselle and i couldn't figure out how nurmatha knows about giselle almost-recent rumour,she claimed that becaus shes the great one....after that we went to the canteen to see yee jeng's science challange thing =DD HAHA I AM GOING TO THE NEXT ROUND TO CHEER FOR THEM!!!this time its very late, 7.30om to 11.00pm on monday.and mind you,can you please tell me what month is now in the lunar calendar?

lols giselle damn cute larhs!and shes like scared of nurmatha's lesbian tendercy,which drove giselle to me.
giselle: marion!(smiling with motive)who do you like?
me: haha.nobody.
giselle: so you don't like me....(disappointed)
me: haha if you want me to be a les i am fine.
giselle: haha ok!! (i think she held my hand or something like that.couldn't remember but she was happy to be a les....)
LOLS shes so funny larhs.and after that she was trying to pair me up with people from my class.hhaha.

haha talking about nurmatha's rumour.it was pretty weird.haha aiya that person is YU FENG larhs.my sport leader for the camp.this rumour was actually quite long ago.but after the camp i was pestering nurmatha and telling her that yu feng's my sports leader.then after that i leaked it out to valerie because we were teasing valerie about 'HITACHI'.and now giselle also know.LOLS.nurmatha was like tired of the rumour.but she was laughing so happily whenever we mentioned about him,or rather,all the basketball boys in her class.they are her boys larhs(which includes 'HITACHI'. "nurmatha!how can you do this to beverly and valerie and kendra???")hahahha

ohhh....

perhaps,this is one of the worst days of my life

so you want me to tell the truth? no??

[[then alrights.today is the BEST DAY of my life.i SIMPY LOVE being in my project group.they are SO COOPERATIVE.they DON'T GET DISTRACTED easily,they DON'T TALK about others things when we are suppose to do the project.even if they did get distracted,they ALWAYS GET their whole attention BACK to the project.my group is VERY EFFICIENT.we get things done QUICKLY.they ALWAYS REMEMBERS what i assigned to them,ESPECIALLY their very own part.there ISN'T A SECOND when they have no idea what happened.we ALWAYS DO the whole project as a team and NEVER SLACK.they FINISH their work ON TIME,and PRODUCE them by the date i want them.they are VERY AUTOMATIC,they KNOW what they have to get done.they REALLY THINKS that projects are VERY IMPORTANT and to them,its the TOP PIORITY.how can i NOT LOVE this PERFECT little group?i am REALLY REALLY SPEAKING the truth.this is REALLY HOW i felt,and i am EXTREMELY HAPPY and FORTUNATE.i will NEVER CHANGE groups if given the chance.OFFENCE,please.
**disclaimer:the above message is purely NOT a description of how i felt and TRYING to attack anybody. ]]

well if you can figure what i really mean,good for you then.oh thats good for me too.

oh today before E.T it was raining very heavily so we ran another route.no,not the pond route.its the newly planned route where we have to climb up and down the stairs.and the teacher was so kind to offer us another round when that teacher said he/she didn't see us [sweetFOUR plus xiaojun.]coming down during the previous round.(oh yes i am trying to hide his/her identity) but we know how to appreciate better.we declined his/her offer because we did ran the same number of rounds as other people.he/she really thinks we are some kind of genius.but luckily,xiaojun remembered the no. of rounds we ran.we ran five rounds.and he/she told us other people ran eight rounds already,after questioning,he/she said sixth round.he/she had no choice but to drop the matter unwillingly when we confirmed that nobody overtake us.wow,thats how much teacher trust students.GREAT!thats pretty insulting,suspecting our integrity like that(though 2e6 doesn't have much,but i swear this time round we did bring along it). you didn't witness it doesn't mean it happened right?ok wait here's a joke:

a person was suspected of stealing apple from his neighbour's garden and was brought to court.

judge:we have 3 people who witnessed you in the action of stealing those apples,what do you have to say?

person:there is 20 people who didn't not witnessed me stealing any apples!

are you going to tell me that the person should be clear of all charges?

**disclaimer: the above message is purely a description of how i felt, and not trying to attack anybody.

oh how many disclaimers do i have to put....

THE ULTIMATE COFFEE

WALAU THIS IS REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY AWESOME!!

the ultimate coffee>>出神入化超級沖咖啡技術


LOLS hahahaha.i love coffee!!=D but this coffee thing is so scary!what an artist!that person really pro lorhs!imagine if you are served with a coffee with a picture of a rabbit or butterfly,will you bear to drink it?not me,HAHA.its too nice to be drank!i don't even think i will actually stir it.hahah.its so cute!!!

倒数四天--yuzhe's album official release =DDDD

and i realise that muggle in chinese is really called 麻瓜......== haha
excluding the muggle part,X family also have spells like the erase memory spell,blablablabla.
LOL LOL LOL =D

leo's just not use to sharing his/her feelings with other people.shhhhh......
lols aiyo i already tried to make things work,if they work,then too bad lorhs...haa
like its the end of the world.

sunday....

oh well,now its been a common practice for me to reserve my sunday,for homeworks...

i suddenly feel pretty lost.this feeling is complicated.let me explain,its like,i have found something that i think is surprising or like make me very hyper,and i want very much to share it with someone about my amazing news.when i go around wanting to share my joy with people,those people i think will react,its either they show me no interest or cut me halfway with some other irrelevant topic.it seems like i can't find any more audience,which makes the whole thing wrong.in the very first place i am excited because i am excited to tell people about it,but there isn't one person that will listen and react the way i wanted.however,knowing that some people are not interested,i am still excited,like as though i felt there is actually somebody i can tell and will be interested.AND I CAN'T SEEM TO KNOW WHO THAT IS....this is so freaking weird!

well anyways,i began to realise life at hogwart will be cool.LOLS.its sounds a bit like camp.you do stuff with your friends from your very own house,do nyaa before sleep,not allowed to walk around during the night,etc.it will be nice if you can be with your clique almost all day and do your homework together.HAHA.i just dormitories are cool =D

YESYESYES!tomorrow is monday!tues i can watch X-family already!ehhh...no...no,nope tues.OH SHIT!if cca ends late i won't be able to watch!nevermind i shall watch it after tuition =D
lalalalalalalala i am so happy yanli is also crazy over yuzhe!WHAHAHA!

YUZHE<3s !

oh my,i am feeling so guilty for not updating myself about yuzhe for so long =[[

ever since june holiday or so,when i got hooked on 18jin bu jin,i cut myself off from yuzhe's news.then now,when i am trying very hard to be windows XP again,i realise so loads of things had happened.

the first really really really scary thing that happen:
YUZHE MET WITH A CAR ACCIDENT!
waa! heart pain siahs! luckily nothing happened to him,only that his car is damaged.but he got himself a new car i think =D thanks god thanks earth!

other things are not that major,like he got himself a role in 公主小妹[gong zhu xiao mei],hmm...,his album officially out on 17 aug,etc.WHAHAHA can't wait for his album!

hai~~i really have no feel to do my homework again....=[[[ its always like that,whenever i get crazy over something,homework and other stuffs are second.

OH MAN tomorrow is finally sunday!!you know i really hate staying at home and doing nothing.i rather i can go to school(not the part that i haven't complete my homework.)&& i don't like weekend anymore(not that i can sleep as late as possible=p) ,because weekend don't have x-family!!! sad....have to wait until tuesday then can watch. =[[[[

you know what?my bro sat beside me when i was watching x-family.LOLS.kind of surprised?he always thought KO one is lame.now hes the lame one

whahahahahahahahahahahah.JUST LOVE X FAMILY AND YUZHE! <333333........

终极一家

LOLS. as usual,i am obsess with 终极一家[X-family].its such a nice show,how can i not be?

haha.however i don't think its like a sequel for KO one.you can only say the story is connected.X-family is just lack of that KO one feel.LOLS.but got yuzhe,dadong and yalun there you cannot say its not nice =D

this is the theme song of X-family,as i mentioned in my previous post.
終極一家主题曲 [出神入化] (stop the imeem song first)

合:这是我的时代 有我给你未来 如果撑不下来 叫你给我主宰 引爆这个时代 谁也不能逃开 看我出神入化 也许被我活埋

纶:度过了那麽多忍耐, 浑身都不自在 正义在我血液澎湃 熬成火海

尊:每一个神情是火柴 灵魂快要暴开 黑暗中你屏息等待 我醒过来

东:热血从不会感到疲倦 就算雨下在眼前 灭不熄心中汹汹火焰~耶

儒:爱只差一场雷电 爱只差一个瞬间 满腔的真气已在冒烟 我准备好`要世界看见`

合:这是我的时代 有我给你未来 如果撑不下来 叫你给我主宰 引爆这个时代
谁也不能逃开 看我出神入化 也许被我活埋
RAP:我说:我的喜欢爱情很反面 我说:为什麽真理越来越远 你说:为什麽要我拯救世界 我说:我已经不能停歇 你说:为什麽要我恢复阵线 你说:为什么禁锢这世界
你说:为什麽不放下一切 我说:我已经不能停歇

东:故事在沼泽中展开 我从混沌醒来`(纶:哦~~~) 定时炸弹早已安排 在我脑海

儒:潜伏在心脏的火山 依然快要爆开 这一生我捍卫所爱 停不下来

合:明天我不怕什麽危险 就算爱被谁冻结 我的心拥有漫长夏天 爱 请试探我的极限

请放肆给我誓言 情 还有什麽终极考验 我准备好 要世界开眼

(这是我的时代 有我给你未来 如果撑不下来 叫你给我主宰 引爆这个时代
谁也不能逃开 看我出神入化 也许被我活埋)重复4遍

WHAHAHHA~~!!

i couldn't decide on any suitable title, so yeahs i just randomly typed something....

oh...my day is pretty terrible today,especially after drinking that horrible orange juice.i shouldn't have ordered it in the very first place...you see arhs,because today i didn't get any decent meal.i woke up at 12.16pm and i had plain bread with milo for my breakfast-lunch.after that i eat bread again around 4 something with coffee(that should explain why i am not feeling at all tired).and so for dinner,i thought drinking my usual lemon tea might cause gastric or something,so i got orange juice,which was such a brilliant choice.like hey come on,it contain citric acid too.... it was made more brilliant when it tasted like water.i am sure they added a fair amount of water inside....

well haha.anyways,let me talk about yesterday.HAHA my nephews and niece are all so KAWAII! (lols you tell me who is not cute when they are babies?) especially the birthday baby,terron is so willing to play with anyone(my bro and him is in good terms....i don't know what spell my bro used on him,but he was dragging him around before my bro on-ed the computer.and yes after the inference of the computer,both of them forgot about each other.LOLS)and i actually got a few photos of him from my bro's phone,and YES AGAIN he is having tuition...what coincidence...haha back to topic.babies are so fun to play with,and i don't remember any babies disliking me.i think because the fact that i am leo is one reason(i read about that leo has the most baby-fate.)its easy to make them laugh and smile,you just have to your face somewhere and pop out suddenly and you can hear their burst of laughters.but having their water taps screwed loosely they are as easy to cry.well.they are still cute =D

YES YUZHE ROCKS!hahaha.oh am i depressed that in the show he haven't got any powers and is frquently taunted by his sister.haha but he still rocks!

lols nurmatha just admit you aren't as clever as me.LOLS.well anyways,reminder for you,PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING THE 3RD BOOK! lols.don't tell me you couldn't read....