1st cca of term four...

awww....cca is not as enjoyable as i thought it would be =[[[

LOLS.i suddenly realise how pathetic ldds is.its so pathetic until i also couldn't suggest anything to improve it.i mean,its no one's fault,but still cca is getting boring-er and boring-er each time.=[[[

LOLS.haha.this is nurmatha and me!taken before ldds.i know the 7th has already past,but you know,they might forgot some of the gh- LOLS kidding.but look at her eyes hidden behind the fingers.lols hahahas.nurmatha please get use to the camera!LOLS.

hahas.so sorry nurmatha!this morning i didn't come and find you!!!ahhh....lols hahas.cause i was very indecisive then.valerie came when i just stepped inside my classroom and she was doing the script thing.plus it was raining,which means there is no morning assembly.so if i went,that would mean i have to walk back to class myself =[[ so i decided to accompany valerie!lols so sorry nurmatha!don't flood ok?there was the rain so i don't think we need more water than that.

whahahas!!!valerie,your dream last night rocks man!hahas so ridiculous and abrupt.

valerie's dream
it started off with me and her and a 'gang of guys'.then all of us were like wearing the same thing,and the 'gang of guys' are like protecting valerie and i.we were walking at those olden days alleys,where food stalls can be seen.we bought curry puff and one of the 'gang of guys' held my hands[lols valerie,why on earth did you dream that?you know,kailin will kill me if she was like last time.opps.]LOLS the most wonderful part about this dream was at the end there.we were walking back to where we start from.we were walking in a carpark when we walked and saw damen's and a girl's wedding.[hahas!valerie was puzzled too.she doesn't really know damen.but in the end we concluded that it might because of the trip to 3e4 yesterday that triggered this plot.]

HAHAS.your dream is cute!

LOLS.whahahas.happy!tomorrow my recess is 3e4's recess,which means i can see nurmatha during OUR recess!!!YAY YAY!hahas and if our art lesson is at the art room,i can see her again!oh man wednesday is such a sweet day =D

so let's count down to tomorrow!

you are both my MOTIVATION and distraction

REASONS WHY I DON'T LIKE HOLIDAYS.

whahahas.i am back to hyper mood now =DD

yesterday night i was like pretty emo =(( LOL LOL.but this morning i woke up then like ok already.

hai got sorethroat =(( sian~~~ i think nurmatha passed the virus together with the letter *cough cough* haha.

haha then this morning nurmatha called me.as expected.haha.then after that we chatted.half of the things we talked was about her class againT.T lols.then she said her guys always watch 5 movies per month.i was like i don't even watch one per month.haha.then we realised nurmatha and i watched the same number of times of movie this year.two.and coincidentally,both of us watched on ein s'pore the other in malaysia.LOL LOL LOL.you see,we are fated.

then she told me about damen treating 7 people(8 in total) to sakae.i was like,"omg...."lols but after thinking about for a while,it make sense actually.and again,it proves that horoscope is accurate.it says that leo is very generous.as for my case,i don't have the money to be generous. =pp

haha nurmatha was saying that i don't sound enthu enough.lols i mean,how enthu can a person get when she has a sorethroat?my name isn't nurmatha you know... lols...

lols i shall list my reasons why i don't like holidays.

WHY I DON'T LIKE HOLIDAYS:
1)i cannot see the great one! =((
2)i cannot pass letter to her! =((
3)teachers will give tons and tons of assignment,thinking that we really have a lot of time
4)tests are squeezed together when this week can share the burden.
5)nurmatha will turn into a pig for sleeping long hours =p

[to nurmatha:actually that reason you suggested is one of the reason.haha.shh...but i won't be so dumb to write it here...=p]

nurmatha says that we are not going to have cca because yee jeng says cca has stepped down.what.....but let's just hoep we have one last cca after holidays =D

LOLS.seeing i so miss her,nurmatha suggested i come to school during her remedial class.she said she is having social studies remedial with mr.seng.LOLS LOLS LOLS.thats the only idea we can think of.=(( and this idea isn't for the right mind.its like i just go to see her for one moment then i can go already.lols!nevermind we can still survive with what muggles call as telephone and also the internet.maybe i should learn how to apparate. =D

seriously...i don't like friendster!how come go haywire again??i didn't know i live in phoenix and i am a virgo.... ==

haha i have nothing to do again,so i shall wait for the great one to online again.lalas

whahahah

lols i seriously have nothing to do,so i decided to blog.

ok i shall blog about nurmatha =DD lalalas.

that day she was asking me whats my relationship with her.my first ans was,"oh..hmm..a person who is going to eat char siew pau??" then yesterday,during our phone conversation,she asked that question again.so we were trying to find ans.

ANS WE THOUGHT OF:

1)senior-junior

2)friend

3)good friend
4)best friend

let me clarify,we are not les.(i don't know if she got any special feelings for me,but i don't =p)haha because nurmatha was saying that many people were saying that we are les and stuff.== which is like so immature and no-depth.haha.

ok i shall now upload the part of the lastest letter where nurmatha thought of as our relationship:

this is seriously... *speechless*

haha.nurmatha i really hope you will seek medical treatment soon.i totally agree with ms.kaur,you are suffering from delusions. =pp

lols anyways,hai i miss my great one =(( nurmatha when are you going to reach home and when are you coming online?!

nurmatha where are you???

lols.today morning i walked to the sec 3 block,and found nurmatha's seat empty(lols i didn't walk into the class).so i walked further and went inside 3e5,because i heard alex's voice.haha.she was talking to johnathan.think they were revising science or something.so i asked alex where nurmatha is and we both realised she was not coming to school.so then i spent my morning with alex.LOLS so 暧昧.（lols how to explain to eng??erm,like for example nurmatha and KH is under that kind of status.something you can rumour or about.i think =p)

lalas.then i wrote yet another letter for nurmatha so she is expecting two letters tomorrow =D

hai feeling so sian now,friendster in under maintanance.=((

LOLS.let me talk about what happened today.hmm...ah!lols today we had literature and ms.kaur explained to us about upper sec lit.i am really considering taking it.hahaha.since nurmatha is taking it too.changfeng kind of confirm want take lit,ziyong said hes confirmed,and joanne is still considering.hahaha.then ziyong was calling changfeng selfish because he wants to take bio lit.ziyong thinks changfeng is stopping people from going to bio class.haha.which is quite logical.

ACES day stands for All Children Exercising Simultaneously.lols we are not children!!we don't celebrate children's day anymore!and i really wouldn't call the dance exercising.hahaha.

haha after school valerie and i were like,"should we do our art?"then we decided to go and paint the fish and pebbles because i wanted to stop by 3e4 to confirm nurmatha really not in school.there is a possibility she will be late,though its not high.kailin,geok,zhenyi and val need boxes to store their books,so kailin,val and i went to look for boxes.on our way back i saw 3e4 people,so there is no use stopping by at 3e4 anymore.valerie and i felt we could do our art at home since we can hand it in during the holidays,we left after that.hahaha.

lols when i reached home i called nurmatha.and she said she was thinking whether she should call me because she didn't know what time i dismissed.hahaha.but i called her first =D then we chatted and chatted.lalalas=D now shes online. =DD

hai my progess report =( the underlined score of my geography. *sobs*

haha i am happy =D i got 31/34 for maths test 3.whahaha.and today we had test 4 and paper 2 of english(speech).LALALAS.

feel so sian~~~ =(

i am feeling so damn confused now....i am at the cross road of my life =(
my heart seems to have decided on something,but,its as though i cannot get use to the idea...
so what should i do??
i think i should follow my heart =D
but still,it all seems so wrong...
OH MY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

hai~~i feel so confused,and weird.i know right from the start,i get bored easily.like for example, i am watching a drama series,the story is so boring that everything can be predicted and there isn't anything surprising or something,i will stop watching the show.but can you actually compare something as wonderful as love to something like a drama show??its logical,but its ridiculous too.i mean,i know all these while it had been infatuation,so now what?another infatuation??

LALALAS.today morning i went to 3e4 again to find nurmatha,and we were holding hands as usual.then jingkuang was like asking,"whats so good about holding hands???" LOLS.so the great one was like,"hmmm maybe you should ask -----."LOLS.and ya she passed me her letter =DD

so during lessons i wrote a letter for her and wanted to pass to her during recess.and during recess,i gave another scream when i saw her.HAHAHHAA~~opps.

haha then it was art lesson.when i walked past her class,she gave my yet another letter.then today for art,ms.ong didn't came to take us,it was MR.SENG.whahaha,our boss =D so i was asking him what class he was going to take after our art lesson,when actually i knew the answer.haha.cause 3e4 is supposed to have social studies at that time.then i asked if he knew nurmatha,and he was like,".....OH NURMATHA!yaya i know her."LOLS i feel so lame~~~

then valerie was telling that she added jia hao a long time ago,which is last year.and she reminded me about someone's crush.LOL LOL how can i actually forgot that man!

when we were on our way back to our class nurmatha came out of class and talked to me again.LALALA.then after that i wrote a letter which i failed to pass to her.=p

the rehearsal for the teachers' day was at 2.30pm.then we went there and dance for one time and we were allowed to go.=DD

when i reached home i called nurmatha and wasn't at home.after that she called me and we chatted.HAHA i forgot to write in my previous post that nurmatha said she cried on the bus yesterday.OH POOR THING =(( she said she was sad haha because she was alone going home.then just now we chatted on stuffs that i couldn't remember.LOLS maybe because today she isn't that hyper(shes sick...oohh so sad...=[ ),and i am not as hyper as usual too.=[[[[[[

ya i shall end my post here.BYE!!~~~

why do i feel that people are disliking me...ahh whatever...

PHONE CALL

lols hmm.... i woke up at 11 this morning =D thats early! i wanted to use the computer to blog as i promised to nurmatha before my bro wakes up and use the computer and in the end he has tuition.if i know i would had slept longer =((

i couldn't sleep last night and was rolling on my bed for an hour or so.it think i slept at around 2 going 3. LOL i was thinking about something.somehow i was caught in a dilemma.i am guilty of not telling the great one something and yesterday i kind of decided to tell her when shes online.but this morning i woke up and realise theres no need to tell her. == i wasted my sleeping time on deciding something that the next morning i rejected so easily.

lols a moment ago,zhenyi just called me and told me the good news! =D WE GOT INSIDE THE AUDITION! LAALLA but i don't know why i am not very hyper or surprise.maybe in my heart i already treat our class get in liaos =DDD lalalalalalalala.

well anyways,i haven't reach the whole purpose of the post.ok lets start the story.yesterday after i offline-d,nurmatha called me.first she asked me was i sad and stuff like that.LOL nurmatha,even if i was sad,receiving a call from you should have made me happy.LOL LOL LOL(don't ego first,wait till you finish this post *evil laughter*)then she was telling me about people's blog being so emo and then telling me about that she can tease 'someone' in her class about 'someone' (the thing i was thinking about last night was about that 'she'.haha)

*we were talking about campus superstar*
nurmatha:"who you support?"
me:"keely,who you like?"
nurmatha:"i like keely.who is the other one other than shaun,keely and zhengning?"
me:"benjamin."

*then she was talking about her class people support who and stuff like that....then she was telling me about the thing that happen yesterday that she could tease someone about*
nurmatha:"actually i wanted to tell you just now in msn but i was busy chatting with many people and that was the reason why it took me very long to reply you."
me:"and who are the people you chatted with??"
nurmatha:"oh you and brigitte."
me:"wow thats a lot of people!"(lalala obviously i am tricking her into telling me she chatted with her lastest rumour)
nurmatha:"no you see, i only said important people that i chatted with.so brigitte and you are important."
me:"oh really??~~then how about who are the dangerous people who will read your blog??"(lols i asked her this question in msn and she said HIS NAME first.)
nurmatha:"*trying very hard to change topic*then how about you? you support keely and HE support keely too."
me:"oh.WHATEVER."
nurmatha:"you two like keely AH HA HA HA."
me:".....you like keely too,remember?"

thats a dumb reason,seriously,i think you can do better than that.....but theres another dumber reason.

nurmatha:"you said hes cute for like so many times. hahahha"
me:"i where got say many times??"
nurmatha:"you told me how cute he was after cca when we were walking to the gate there and in the classroom...."
*before she finishes*
me:"didn't you read me blog! i said he act cute ok!you got say hes cute too."
nurmatha:"no i didn't.you kept saying hes cute."
me:"i wrote in my blog 'how many times did nurmatha say hes cute?' and thats uncountable.you said a lot more than i did."
nurmatha:"*excitedly*thats because hes my classmate and that hes really cute!!"
me:"OHH!you finally admitted you said hes cute!"
nurmatha:"*excitedly*thats because hes really damn cute what!"
me:"then why did deny you said hes cute."
nurmatha:"*excitedly*oh but hes really very cute!!"
me:"there you go again...I TELL YOU I WILL DEFINITELY WRITE A POST ABOUT OUR CONVERSATION!HAHA"

nurmatha,your reasoning rocks man!then after that she gave me another reason to tease her.

nurmatha:"*excitedly (again)*seriously hes damn cute larhs!you know he sits where right?then sometimes when i look at that direction and he look at my direction,when we see eavh other,we will just suddenly burst into laughter!
me:"oh really?HAHAHA you gave me another evidence to tease you!!!"
nurmatha:"....."

the great one's power is decreasing.i think her char siew pau absorb all her intelligence,leaving her so dumb.LOL LOL LOL LOL.YOU ROCKS NURMATHA!

oh hai next week sunday is the photo shoot for the tuition centre and today we are going to shop for clothes and stuff.meeting mader at raffles mrt at 3.15pm.seriously don't feel like going out =((

LOLS cca is always fun

hahaha.its funny today.our class last lesson was d&t and kailin and me was walking back to classroom.guess who i saw at the staircase at the hall there?lols.its the great one!haha shes with alex.and when i saw nurmatha and she saw me,we were like laughing LOLS.then alex shouted to me that before that,nurmatha was saying,"char siew pau char siew pau char siew pau" haha.

then after i returned to class,i went down to canteen with geok.then we were walking to put our bowls,then we actually wanted to go back classroom,not when i saw alex.

me:"eh!alex!wheres nurmatha!"
alex:"lols there!!" *pointing to the bench that i was sitting a while ago.*

LOL LOL.then after that geok had to go to cca so i accompanied my seniors to eat.then nurmatha pulled me to 3e4 with alex(because shes in 3e6 and she wanted to take her bag.)so nurmatha and i were like sitting down in 3e4,while holding hands.(lols seriously,you don't call this les).then nurmatha' classmate,jingkuang and another person were like holding hands also.then after that,people were gathering behind at the classroom and doing some sort of gay things to tease nurmatha.(haha i don't think i want to risk my secret.)then jiahao so (act-) cute(hmm how many times have nurmatha said hes cute?uncountable),he was going for cca already and nurmatha was saying goodbye to him so i said goodbye also.and his reaction was like,hmph! in a kiddish manner.haha.after that we proceeded to 3e6.

haha the ruth jiejie is so cute=D then she was asking how long nurmatha and i have been together.and nurmatha was like saying that yestesday night in msn we broke up and patched in blog,broke up in blog and patched in msn again.LOL!so les.... after that we went to the 1n1.and nurmatha,stupidly,told me about HER NEW RUMOUR.lols lols.

then today's cca wasn't that interesting.we did the dance.hai i seriously enjoy and like our 2e6 class dance alot better.its so stupid,we got scammed.they said we won't be auditioning,then today mdm tang wants to see us dance.luckily it is videotaped,videotaped by glen.haha when nurmatha saw glen she was like hiding behind me? because glen was trying to shoot her.HAHA.its like,you think my height can hide you?haha.then ruth was also trying to shoot nurmatha and me holding hands and stuff like that.haha.

today cca ended at 5 plus.they were discussing about the costume thing.why can't we just settle with a black tee and jeans like that time?they were making it really complicated.hai~~~i really wish we don't get inside audition. =p though i will be sad,we did put effort in the whole dance thing.

5 something,its too early.and nurmatha was telling me for don't-know-how-many-times she is very happy today.and since i am pretty hyper too,we didn't want to go home.haha and giselle was there too =D

we were like standing at the balcony there.LOL LOL LOL LOL.nurmatha!you had too much slips of the tongue.i shall present to you the slips of the tongue of the day!specially for nurmatha

1st slip of tongue
(giselle was asking about the school team and non-sch team of the basketball people)
nurmatha:"those in red are in the school team."
me:"huh...most of your class guys are wearing blue."
nurmatha:"ya my class only two person in the school team.damen and jingkuang"
me:"oh.then how about YOUR GUY?"
nurmatha:"yes he isin....WALAU!! *speechless*"

haha.by then me and giselle were laughing like hell.so she finally admitted that hes her guy.but wait lets hear her excuse.

nurmatha:"NO!!you hear me first!*she started cornering me* i didn't know you are talking about YUFENG.i thought you are talking about damen and my class boys!AHH NO!!"

hmmm thats a really good excuse....

2nd slip of tongue
*there is this guy called gerard or something walking on the first floor*
nurmatha:"hi!"
*gerard was saying something and giselle and i couldn't get what he said.but if nurmatha didn't reacted like very agitated we wouldn't have ask gerald to repeat.*
giselle and i:"hey hey hey!what did you say?can you please repeat?"
*gerard was talking about nurmatha's latest rumour*
giselle:" whos that -----(ahaha think it is better not to write the name)"
*then i was telling her who that person is and blablabla,when suddenly...*
me:"shall we go to the CO room??"
nurmatha:"yes,sure....NONONO!(lols evidently that person is from CO)"

haha then nurmatha was so funny,she suddenly squated down and kept quiet for a while.HAHA.LOLS.but she still explained in the end.(anyways giselle didn't know why i was talking about CO)

giselle:" ??? why did you want to go to the CO room??"
nurmatha:" *act calm* cause arhs, i want to see melody.(is the spelling correct?)"
giselle:"ohh i miss her too...."
me:"lols nurmatha!don't lie larhs!"
nurmatha:"*cornering me again...* it was a slip of tongue!i thought you were saying that we should go back to classroom...."
*before she says finish*
me:"how many slips of tongue do you have today??"
giselle:"ya it couldn't be such a coincidence."
nurmatha:"really its a slip of tongue!i really thought you were referring to somewhere else...."
*i cut in again*
me:"how many time can you hear wrongly nurmatha!"

lols.hmm..actually there aren't that many slips of tongue.if you want to include that nurmatha accidentally-on-purpose(here i mean she accidentally let me know about her rumour when she want to tell me a story on purpose.=D) told me about kiat hwee as her rumour. oh no.opps =P

haha i am so happy.haha.i think i am driving the great one crazy soon.LOL LOL LOL.

nurmatha is so damn crazy about her class...she was feeding me all things about her class,the story of her kiat-hwee blog,the story of the quarrel between andrew and ms.yeo,the story of jia hao's handphone,waaa she just can't seem to stop.and then she was telling me that almost all of the people in her class(mostly guys)knows about me.oh i feel so famous.LOLS kidding(i need a anti-ego injection).actually i am not that surprised because some people whom i don't know also know me.(duh,its all thanks to nurmatha....) for example today during CME when we were in the library and i saw yan li.

*she was showing me a friend of hers*
yanli:"ya this is the pervertic friend i said."
qamarina:"hi!"
me:"oh hi!"
qamarina:"*talking to yanli*oh so thats marion char siew pau."
yanli: *laughs*

LOLS.now people know me by my nickname.haha nurmatha do you remember how that nickname exist???lols hahaha don't think we need a recap.

WHAHAHA this whole post is almost all about nurmatha.OH YA i nearly forgot one thing.while we were walking to 1n1 before cca,nurmatha was telling me about when its the SEVENTH TIME that she thought i was around her and i really appeared in front of her.HAHA.and she told me she walked past me classroom during our maths test.LOLS.and you know what.i sensed her walking or something.its like everyday i hoped she will be walking pass my class,which means today too.and during maths test,i just suddenly while doing my paper,i suddenly had the nurmatha-might-walked-past-my-classroom thought during that period.because i thought having test is the only time i won't be looking up the window.LOLS.what do you call this?chemistry?6th sense?its just so creepy.

oh haha yesterday night,it was really hard to sleep.i fell asleep and a while later i opened my eyes and couldn't moved.i hate this =[[ cause i know if i move and sleep back again i will most probably get it again.and out of the many times,there was this one time when i heard 2 evil laughters.the first one was a female voice, and then a male voice.when i was truely awoke,i wasn't scared though.haha.because somehow i knew it was my imagination.i did hear the voices but i am sure its because i was feeling too tired.

i am waiting for nurmatha to online at 8 o'clock which she kind of promised(actually she didn't promise...).she said she will be online at this time.i am waiting for her to read my blog,say she wants to kill me and broke up with me,which in 5 minutes time we will definitely patch.because she is too talkative to stop talking to me.haha.it has been tested.in sch today we broke a couple of times too.LOL

LALA TODAY'S SAT!

hai life is getting hectic-er when the examinations are round the corner.all the teachers are so generously to give us so much projects.but we are easily contented,so we really really don't mind if there isn't any project.

oh today,again,its booked for project.GREAT.i woke up at 10 plus.*yawn* i miss my bed...well then yeahs the music project started from 1 plus to 5 something.hahah.we have to present it on monday.LOLS.hope it will turn up really fine. =D

NURMATHA REALLY REALLY DOESN'T LIKE ANYONE.
(you get my hint?anyways now we can conclude that she loves him because i don't remember his name is anyone,do you?)

before i went to do project,i got a call from the great one.LOL LOL LOL.she said she's gonna kill me(as if she can).like how many times she said that?hmmm around 6985614843 times?lols kidding larhs.as expected she called to talk about my previous post.because she wanted me to include that she loves him.(nurmatha if you are reading:relax!!!its just a joke)she was forcing,threatening,bullying me again=[

(halfway through the conversation,she was mentionting that yufeng will be going to NSC)
marion: "ohhh ohh ohh....i seee.thats why you want to go right?"
nurmatha: "marion,i really don't like you!"
marion: "lols anyways,can you pass me harry potter on monday?"
nurmatha: "i try,if my bag is light.i am not making any promises.

(soon we were talking about my post again.)
nurmatha: "MARION LOH AI LING!I THOUGHT YOU PROMISED NOT TO WRITE ABOUT YU FENG?!"
marion: "??did i write about yufeng("did you imagine that his name is there because you miss him too much?"i kept this question my heart) btw,you only made me promise that i had to write you don't like anyone and that 3e4 rocks."
nurmatha: "i don't care you have to edit it like the way i did in my blog if not your secrets won't be secrets anymore!"
marion: "ok.i try.i am not making any promises."
nurmatha: "haha."

honestly,COME ON,NURMATHA!do you really think that i will actually edit the post when i am having fun teasing you about him?i really think this is one of your weakest points.haha.but actually i am teasing you for the sake of teasing you,not because that i really think you like him or stuffs like that.but if you really dislike me saying you and him,i can always do you a favour by picking another boy from your basketball boys =DDDDDDDDDD i am such a kind soul!

(are you happy when this post nurmatha??)

well anyways,i wish to talk about the post about the "best" day.yeahs sweetFOUR the best group.i really love them,really,but not sometimes when we are doing project.i don't know why,but at times they do the assigned work late.for example,i said they have to get the draft of the newspaper article done by wednesday,so that we can work on the real newspaper itself on wednesday.they came on that day and kailin got it done,valerie done but really not enough words and yuan geok doing less than 35%.ok fine nevermind,i asked them to bring home to do and complete everything because the next day is the due date.and the next day two of them came with uncompleted articles.i mean like,there is so much time you can do it,i managed.i really don't know what they were doing the night before.using computer?i used too until eleven something.but i stay till twelve to complete.if you know you have project to do and don't want to stay up late then do the project first!i asked if they are staying during recess to complete,and they said they wanted to eat.NOW WHAT? you are not completing the articles the day before,not coming to school early PLUS NOT USING THE RECESS TIME TO DO,then like WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO DO IT.its not whether or not that you only left with a little bit,its the attitude.i can just tell them that they always give me that kind of i-don't-care-if-ALL-OF-US-fail.and since that works are assigned to you,you have the very responsibility to get it done.i do know i am selfish,i want myself to pass ok.but who is more selfish?me,who wants everyone from my team to pass,or people who wants everyone in the group to fail with them?

sometimes there is this debate in my head whether i am going too hard on them,though the opposition always wine.everyone is doing the i-tried-my-best-to make it equal amount of work.and it is agreed.i always ask if they could manage before i confirmed them.plus i dare say i am putting a little more effort and energy,and i have to check everybody's progess and remembering everyone task that the other member don't have to.ITS FAIR ENOUGH ISN'T IT?

during the last project discussion in school,they just get distracted so damn easily like as if one insect flew past is their business.(basically valerie and kailin)they go "ehh blablabla just walk past." and from that sentence they can drag until another person,another event and another completely different topic.and while my many attempts to get their brains back to our more important project are ignored,i kept silence.in the past i told myself i am lucky that i only need to speak up to get them back to project.but now,not anymore.though the silence game took quite longbut its quite effective.hey they ARE human(excluding the part how they treat project.)it didn't really take very long for them to realise that something is very wrong,and thats me asking this and telling them not to talk about boys.finally,they asked question.but i kept my replies short and sweet.and this time,i restrained from asking for their opinion,because when that happened they will know i am back to normal and they can be back to normal themselves.(which means continuing to get distracted without putting any effort to get in the discussion)

i really find the way they get distracted distracting.seriously,those guys groups are more efficient and faster than us.i really don't want it in the way when i do everything myself(my name's not lisa chan.)like for example,last time grouping,with xiaojun and lisa and without yuan geok,its always xiaojun and lisa,or sometimes me,doing the planning and stuffs like that.in the end,WE SPLIT.why?lack of communication.lisa changed things without actually informing us and we really felt that we don't have a place in the group.and now what i am trying to do is to avoid this kind of problem.why do you think that i want people not to get distracted and discuss the whole thing together?you think this is easy,with those boy-freaks in your group?if both one-person-do-it-all and everyone-gets-involved don't work,then the problems lies not with the others but THEMSELVES.i mean SERIOUSLY,if there is another group i can join,i will fly there.
i am already quite lenient ok.and if thats why they are taking advantages,you know i can always change for the "better".

to be frank i have a pretty nasty temper.but i always managed to suspress it before anything bad can happen.but according to the records,nobody has actually triggered it for a long time.(hmm maybe you should ask my brother how my temper is last time before i learnt to stop my temper=D)i used to be an impatience and really bad-tempered nasty brat,but as you can see,i am a wonderful angel.(yes its a joke.LOL)actually nobody will actually really realise whether i am angry or not,because i don't show my anger on my face(or maybe because i am pretending not to be angry.)i am really angry that time during the previous discussion(well my leo dictionary doesn't teach me weakling words like sad or disappointed.)in case my group's member haven't notice,during all the discussion,90% of them were the time i was angry.

haha you can see i have got a lot to say about project group ^^ honestly,i have more to say but some actually couldn't be put in words and that i think its enough =DD

there was this time i was wondering why catherine was scolding huoy jing for being weak.(she cried because of blablabla matter)i seemed to have found the reason because catherine has been through quite a number of things as i can see.(leos are fated to be like that,i read once)i felt the same way as catherine.some people just are so pathetic.they cry and stay emo and sad for like which seem a lifetime(its an exaggaration,they just spent to much time thinking about those sad stuffs.)seriously,PLEASE WAKE UP. THERE ARE MORE THAN MILLION PEOPLE IN THE WORLD WHO ARE MORE PITIFUL THAN YOU!before you start thinking about what you don't have,THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE FIRST.you may realise that you are actually more fortunate than you thought. =DDD

oh its a long post.i shall end here =D

WHY NURMATHA ROCKS

oh man.i am forced,threatened,bullied and spammed by the GREAT ONE.now tell me,how much can this person rock??

no choice,i have my weakeness too.i couldn't risk my secret flying around the school like mad.this is my last way of escaping.so this post is specially delicated to NURMATHA

WHY NURMATHA (thinks she)ROCKS:
1)she is the great one
2)she is charsiewpau-owner
3)she loves me
4)she is a harry potter fanatic
5)she has my secrets
6)she LOVES her 3e4 and 3e4 rocks(i didn't want to say this,but she requested for this....)
7)she told me about people putting her and yu feng together and now forgot that she said so.
8)i asked her why didn't she blog today and she said she was too tired when now she is awake and is off blogging because 3e4 won the aerobics thing....
9)she forced me to say she don't like anyone(except me.DUH!)
10)she claims that she is the best.
11)she told me everything i want to know,unless there is a really good reason(sounds like hagrid)
12)she is like dark chocolate with nuts.a prefect mixture of sweetness,bitterness and nut-ness.
13)she doesn't share with me her DEEPEST and DARKEST secret.
14)she gets really very agitated for i don't want know reason when i say her with yufeng.
15)I SAY SHE ROCKS SO SHE ROCKS!

NURMATHA!haha heres the fifteen perfect,sweet and wonderful reason why you rocks.my secret will be safe and you won't talk rubbish right?ok yeahs and don't forget your harry potter again if not i cannot make sure if i won't say you and yufeng again =p

xx**10.03pm: LOLS i just saw the video of the aerobics by 3e4.yes damen's group,the group that won.LOLS hahaha they so funny.i think i like it.for the first time,i really think 3e4 rocks.HAHA.(lols i can imagine nurmatha saying,"i told ya!")

YUZHE'S ALBUM!

mama!today's the date of yuzhe's album release!!OMGOMGOMG!tsk but don't know whether singapore got sell or not.i really doubt.

oh man.today isn't such a good day after all.i lost FOUR stationaries.
they are:
1)uni clicker mechanic pencil
2)uniball signo DX red pen
3)pilot G2 green pen
4)pilot G2 red pen

and i was really retard to discover at different that they were missing.firstly,because CME,i was using my pencil to write "tangyuzhe".when we came back from the library,i was like,"eh?wheres my pencil?"but i didn't really cared cause it was only one pencil.then during geography i realise my balck pen was missing too,and i was like waaa i only left with two pens(i didn't feel anything wrong).it was until maths then i fully realise my great loss!my green pen and re dpen were missing too!my green pen,i only bought it the day before yesterday and i haven't touch it before!!!I FEEL SO UNLUCKY!HALF OF THE STUFF IN MY PENCIL CASE IS MISSING....

hahaa anyways,today ldds was pretty fun because we were slacking!we did some kind of poem thing,then me,giselle,nurmatha and yan li were like chatting.LOLS the chat was very enjoyable.=DD then giselle,nurmatha and i were teasing each other like siao,when suddenly nurmatha couldn't stand us saying HER and HER GUY,so she made a deal with giselle that she won't tease her to giselle doesn't tease her.(in the end giselle and i agreed to tease her with other people too.)anyways,giselle and i couldn't figure out how nurmatha knows about giselle almost-recent rumour,she claimed that becaus shes the great one....after that we went to the canteen to see yee jeng's science challange thing =DD HAHA I AM GOING TO THE NEXT ROUND TO CHEER FOR THEM!!!this time its very late, 7.30om to 11.00pm on monday.and mind you,can you please tell me what month is now in the lunar calendar?

lols giselle damn cute larhs!and shes like scared of nurmatha's lesbian tendercy,which drove giselle to me.
giselle: marion!(smiling with motive)who do you like?
me: haha.nobody.
giselle: so you don't like me....(disappointed)
me: haha if you want me to be a les i am fine.
giselle: haha ok!! (i think she held my hand or something like that.couldn't remember but she was happy to be a les....)
LOLS shes so funny larhs.and after that she was trying to pair me up with people from my class.hhaha.

haha talking about nurmatha's rumour.it was pretty weird.haha aiya that person is YU FENG larhs.my sport leader for the camp.this rumour was actually quite long ago.but after the camp i was pestering nurmatha and telling her that yu feng's my sports leader.then after that i leaked it out to valerie because we were teasing valerie about 'HITACHI'.and now giselle also know.LOLS.nurmatha was like tired of the rumour.but she was laughing so happily whenever we mentioned about him,or rather,all the basketball boys in her class.they are her boys larhs(which includes 'HITACHI'. "nurmatha!how can you do this to beverly and valerie and kendra???")hahahha

PICTURE!

starting from the left: harry potter--seniors
chocolates-(club and guylian)--irving
chocolate(hershey's)--ziyong
sunglasses--valerie
teddybear necklace--kailin & geok
evil toy--shiwei(lols don't you agree that this toy looks like shiwei?)
chocolate(ferrero rocher)-- zhenghuan

WOW thanks to my bro,he got (only) one photo into this computer.thanks so much man....

actually there is far more photo then one,but my bro.....he keep saying that his phone and the computer couldn't get connected....but i have to admit that there is really a lot of photos.besides,he is off to tuition again...

LOLS.i am so happy!CAUSE I FINSIHED READING PHILOSOPHER'S STONE!whahaha.yesterday there was the cultural exchange thing and i really wished charsiewpau-owner was there.i felt lost without her during cca.=( LOLS!then yesterday she called me twice.each time when the phone rang,i was like....tsk.who is it? haha when i realise it was the great one i was jumpy and happy(and relieved.because i was expecting some project calls....)HAHA.i was reading the stone when both calls came..she asked me to finish it before monday so that she can give me the HARRY POTTER QUIZ.haha.

I LOVE HARRY POTTER,DUMBLEDORE,FRED & GEORGE,PEEVES!~~~lols i think i love all the character in harry potter.fred & george are the most funniest people in the world.LOL LOL LOL.and peeves,helping harry indirectly when filch came.
peeves:"Shan't say nothing if you don't say please."
filch:"please.... "
peeves:"NOTHING!toldya i shall say nothing if you say please!!HAHAHAHHA!"
LOLS.i love joanne rowling!

nurmatha said my brother is cute when she read the post on my birthday....argh....anyways yesterday i just realise how lucky i was to have a seniors like the great one!LOLS.so whenever i am depress or sad then i shall think of charsiewpau-lover =D

== it didn't help at all to think of nurmatha.cause it doesn't help the problem.haiyo i have to go for the ipw presentation practice already.I SHALL NEVER BE A LEADER AGAIN....

bye....~~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARION!!

lols haha.yaya.my birthday's yesterday.SO HAPPY!

(in case you haven't realise,i am back to hyper mood!!!WHOO!!)

LOL.yesterday after school,at night after i had tuition, there was a party!!=D

PRIZE PRESENTATION:
On second of august:
First person to wish me happy birthday personally: Nurmatha(LOLS)
First person from 2e6 to wish me happy birthday: ZhenYi(this is pretty surprising!=D)
First present received: Harry potter and the Philosopher's Stone
(Given by: [LDDS seniors]:The great one,YanLi,YeeJeng,Alexandra,Priyangha,Akanksha)
Other presents givers(in time order): Irving,Ziyong,Valerie,KaiLin and YuanGeok,Zhenghuan,ShiWei,My mum.
People at the tuition party: Madeline,WenYee,GuoWei,KaiJie and his sis,JaiChyi,MrLim,MsSoh.
Mastermind of the party:Veronica(and she wasn't present...LOL)
Birthday wishes via phone sender(received): Madeline,Brian
Birthday wishes via phone sender(failed to receive): Alexandra,Valerie,...(there might be more)
Birthday wishes via friendster sender: Desmond,Anson,Kailin
Birthday wishes via tagboard sender: Sherynn,Serene,Zhenghuan,Anita,Daryl,ShiWei
Birthday wishes via msn sender: Pauline,JieWei,Kirby
Birthday wishes in advance: Valerie,ZhengHuan,ZiYong
Most number of times of birthday songs sang: 2e6!
Millions of thanks to the above people.*applause*

LOLS.it is proven i am in a good mood now=D those presents i took photos with my bro's phone,but he is out to tuition now.so i can only get them up at around 10?yeahs and i will bear in mind all the people in the award winning list

you know why i didn't receive val's and alex's sms?because my phone has gone crazy AGAIN=(
but luckily i still recieved two.haha.

ok enough of yesterday,i will continue about the present when my bro's back.OH talking about my bro,he damn evil.when i came home,i saw him using computer and i said,"Eh why you so early come home?I thought i could have chance to use the computer before you come back!" He replied,"Because it's your birthday? " == LOL LOL LOL

well anyways,let me briefly talk about today. the d&t,i think i am going to have nightmare...mr.wong is replaced by another teacher which didn't introduce himself.he was showing us how to use the things in the d&t room.then he was pushing that cram thing beside the table.think that thing was too tight,so he kind of gan jiong then he pushed it with all his might.I SWEAR I DID SAW HIM JUMPED UP.then he spoke for a few sentence and he held his small finger of his left hand.OH MY FREADKING GOD ITS BLEEDING AND I DID SAW THE FINGERNAIL DANGLING OUT OF HIS FINGER!so he said,"Oh,i crammed my finger."HE WAS STILL JOKING.it was a hard joke,there is nothing to laugh at....he was so calm that some people didn't realise his finger was injured.he went to wash his finger and went out of the room.soon those people who were ignorant knew what happened.shiwei and jiong han was at there describing what they saw somemore(they were nearest to teacher)!!!they said they saw the flesh!IT IS DAMN GROSS I CAN FEEL THE PAIN!then soon after fear crept into our class,he stepped inside the room again.OH MAN IMAGINE HAVING YOUR WEAK LITTLE FINGER BEING SQUASHED BY TWO HEAVY WOOD,WHICH ONE CONTAINS THE FORCE AND SPEED OF A OBJECT MOVING AT 6CM/SEC! omgomgomgomgomgomg!he still carried on teaching and we could see his hand trembling!!~~~*shivers*

okok don't talk about that anymore and i will not remember it.... AH lets talk about harry potter!i once see the future of those words in harry potter that was created by Joanne Rowling, for example, muggles, squibs.i think they will appear in dictionary in the future like those words created by Shakespeare.haha i saw one online dictionary giving the meaning of muggles.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/muggle
LOL go see the results!

i was pondering about the fact that ms.kaur once pointed out,that human wants people to suffer,no matter if they feel good or bad.i realise it was pretty true for me towards harry potter(yeahs to me harry potter's alive...) while reading order of the phoenix,i couldn't help but look forward to harry receiving more umbridge's detention.HAHA didn't know i was that evil.and i couldn't wait for him to get into trouble with many professor,like Snape,etc.cause in my mind i already have the thinking that Albus Dumbledore will surely saved him in the end,so there is nothing to worry about.=D

OH NO TOMORROW'S OUR PERFORMANCE!have to reach school at 8am.*yawn*i want to sleep!!!!~~~

haha hope i can upload the photos later =D

the great one

this few days it was all about forcing a smile and not smiling.LOLS.i know this sentence to sure to boost nurmatha's self-esteem,but i am not gonna lie,THE GREAT ONE'S BLOG REALLY MADE ME SMILE.hahaha.think shes the only one who i can really confront to.and also she brought me to the world of magic,charms, and spell.HAHA.yeahs harry potter.[hey anyways nurmatha,i don't want sirius,can i have harry potter instead?yeahs right i am trying to snatch from you.HES WITH GINNY WITH THREE KIDS,mind you!we shouldn't think about him.LOL.and come back from reality,thats not very safe for you to imagine about being with characters that are made up with that crazy character of yours,i don't want to visit you in the mental hospital]

yeahs i am chatting with nurmatha now,and she is talking about 3e4 again*roll eyes*.LOLS.fine!there is nothing wrong to be committed to your own class.she say she was very sad that many people were sad and some got injured.then our attention was diverted to damen.haha.somehow he hurt his leg and couldn't run.and i was telling nurmatha how he asked us to pick up the litter and eat them.LOLS.nurmatha said he damn cute siahs.LOLS.damen also self-highed,entertaining himself by shouting 3cheers for damen.LOLS.nurmatha's response:
"so cute...........wth...........marion he is such a jackass!" HAHA

as soon as i am feeling happier,nurmatha said she is going to be offline....=[LOLS.as soon i typed that "as soon as i am feeling happier,nurmatha is going to be offline" feeling lonely,nurmatha said she will come back later on.=]as soon as i typed "as soon i typed that "as soon as i am feeling happier,nurmatha is going to be offline" feeling lonely,nurmatha said she will come back later on" feeling hopeful,she said she is going to be online around 9 or 10 == thats the time my bro will use the computer....LOL i felt so much better after i told her that i am blogging about her, she went very shocked and flooded half a page,with question marks.LOL LOL.i am enjoying it,she is still pressing me about what i wrote after 5 min or so.LOLS no wonder she got so nervous,she said,"juz dun say i like anione,or i will personally come and kill u." haha nurmatha i didn't mention a word but you just give me that idea to..to copy and paste what you said ;p

oh no my sore throat and cough haven't recover.voice break...my voice is terrible.yeahs i couldn't sing this few days....i shall restrain from talking unless neccessary.

nurmatha is hurrying me to finish the post fast.ok there you are.

xx**4.14pm:LOLS nurmtha was pretty happy about my comments about her.HAHA.and she said she wanted to copy and paste my post.hhahaha.

anyways,that time i happen to read about singing can cure sorethroat if used in the right way.i was singing happily(definitely ignoring my voice),and i think my voice really got better.hahaha.plus i am eating strepsils now;DDD

HEY PEOPLE!!

lols.today is the first day of the flu,second day of a cough and third day of a sore throat.you know,tomorrow i might just wake up with a fever.

haha.this few days pretty busy.so didn't have time to actually blog.

let me talk briefly about yesterday.the assembly thing was postponed because the speakers' corner took too long.the performance will be postponed till the shanghai people come;D after that was ldds.lols we did the dance again;D and nurmatha was telling me about how she and yanli thought what a poor thing i was(which is part of my secret;p) there was the speech day practice after that,AND A KIND OF GOOD NEWS AND BAD NEWS TO ANNOUNCE.i shall no longer be the emcee for this year's speech day and alex has taken over me.because ms.kaur thinks that alex requires less training.it was actually kind of a good thing,because i must say i was pretty stressed by it.LOL LOL.but alex was telling me not to be so happy,because next year nicholas and i will be taking over,which then i told her,that if i work hard this year and become a prizewinner,I CAN STILL BE HAPPY.but obviously this one is kidding one larhs.its a honour to be emcees for speech day okay?

today's that geo teacher last lesson with us ;[[ hai.

shit...i don't really remember what happen today.but i remember getting a treat of mee siam from valerie and vitasoy from kailin!!!;D hahah. THANKS!

i shall declared that i have short-term memory loss.besides that two things,i can remember during english lesson when valerie and i keep posing poses when people were doing their ipw presentation.LOL.not again!haha we just find it fun when people were speaking and suddenly broke into laughter because they saw US!

i think i am thinking too much again.

i knew something was missing.i was really surprised when nurmatha said about that yanli and her thought i was very sad.REALLY I MEAN...REAL SURPRISE.then i realise what was missing.that sadness.despite the fact that a lot of things actually happened.is it because of the lack of love or something,that i don't feel sad at all??if a drama series has that kind of storyline for the female and male lead,i might feel sadder.but it happened to me,and i feel NOTHING!is it because all of that has something to do with my instituition, or......

you know,i did think before,that i always think too much that,there is probably a high chance of me suddenly don't want anything and going to the temple to become a nun or deciding to end my life.but if you think logically,THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN(so you mean marion is not thinking logically???)yes you may say that.(so you are trying to contradict yourself??)hmm yes. (why?)because i am thinking too much.

well anyways,i am getting more and more used to english and I AM SO HAPPY! ;D and i think i have finally finished 5/9 of the order of phoenix liaos.WHOO!

just close your eyes and relax.

ASSEMBLY PERFORMANCE

YO!today during geography lesson,there was this very cute teacher called ms.chiong(correct spelling??).OH MAN SHE'S DAMN KAWAII!!!when shiwei asked for permission to go the gents,she replied, "YAYA" LOLS.so freaking cute!and yes!i digested what she taught.really i mean it;DDD

haha.i missed maths lesson because of the assembly performance by ldds.LOL.its was real dumb.valerie and i were standing behind the hall,holding mic and chocolate.we didn't take the signboard.haha but yeahs!LDDS DID A GOOD PERFOMANCE!though there is still room for improvement;DD

LOL.the maths test score was given today.so when i went back to class i went round asking about the score.xiaojun gave me those don't-dare-say look,and in the end i was told i got 19/30.though i was a bit surprise,but i thought at least i didn't fail(ya ya,looking on the bright side.)then i went asking people how much they scored.learning that people scored 20 plus for the test,yes i was pretty upset.but obviously that upset didn't last long.YOU KNOW ME.LOL

after that xiaojun and i decided to settle our lunch at the mcdonald's near the mrt station.so we walked with hanjie too.we were chatting about some random topic. i was talking about harry potter and the order of the phoenix,on when then i realised that i had read almost half the book in one week.LOL!!!!then we went to mcdonald's while han jie went home.so xiaojun and i were chatting again.about practically everything.HAHAHA.we were talking about the maths test,and she said that mr.wong said he was AMAZED by marks.yes and my mark shocked xiaojun too,she says.

you know what.i was actually quite happy to hear this.ITS NOT I HAVE TURN CRAZY BECAUSE OF THE SUDDEN DROP IN MARKS.its because at least i know there are some people who believes i can do better than 19.

xiaojun was wondering why the difference in the marks.i said something like because i learnt more in tuition and my tutor haven't teach that chapter yet.she said that its normal because most people absorbs more in the night.well,actually,thats was an excuse.cut those excuses and admit the fact.YES i haven't been paying a lot of attention in school or in tuition AND slacking in those homeworks by asking other people how to do when actually i knew i could manage. HAHA.

it suddenly came to me that,i was pretty lucky.why?because god had arranged it in the way that i won't be present when teacher actually announces the marks.if i was present i will have definitely felt WORSE.and the 19 marks wasn't such a sad thing afterall.yes my mood was pretty affected,but its not that influential(as if i am going to break down and cry.).the point is that,this morning during the science lesson,i told myself i have to put in all my effort for this semester,even how boring the lesson is.the geo lesson was actually comforting,i really knew what was going on.my soul told me i have to concentrate on my school work,especially homeworks,because i am just pretending they didn't exist.its not as if i don't have time you know.i live near school and it takes a shorter time to travel back home,yet people finished they homework and not me.want to know you??BECAUSE I AM USING MY TIME ON OTHER STUFFS.for example nowadays,i was occupied by my harry potter and obviously blogging(i have spend one hour in front of the computer since i return home.)so now with the whole point of failing maths(yeahs,to me 19 seemed like failing.. ),i think i will try a lot harder.yeahs,so after the blogging and stuffs,i shall obediently take out my maths textbook to do the chapter 10 homework ;DD

back to chatting with xiaojun.then we were taking about how our projects group were,and make it a point that its now time for a change.HAHA.people needs new environment;p

i am real sorry i was influenced by harry potter for losing my tempers on things that didn't cause my anger.LOL sorry!!

something happened!don't act as if nothing bothers you.

RACIAL HARMONY!

WHAHAH.happy racial harmony day!!!

LOLS so fun can!everyone in our class except for 6 people wore the ethnic customes.they were borrowed from mdm sha and ms.norli.haha.WE HAD FUN!!WE TOOK PICTURES!i wore a malay costumes!haha though it was long and big.the skirt,i folded three times.haha.;p and we were the only sec 2 class with so many people wearing!YAY YAY YAY!everyone looks so pretty,handsome,sexy,gorgeous,.. today;DD happy happy.

and yaya,i cannot forget this.we really have thanks our noble class monitress zhenyi for borrowing them;D but then,although it was nice of her to borrow, i hope she will confirm with us before borrowing and not borrow it and started saying i already borrowed liaox so please cooperate.;DDD

LOL.haha.the speech day rehearsal thing.i really have a tough time struggling.some people's names are just hard to pronounce(i admit that mine is one of them too....marion is no MA RI ON.then ION is the same pronunciation as the ION in LION.haha)luckily there is still three other emcees,yanli and her friend(SORRY!forgot his name;[[)and nicholas from 2e2.and this rehearsal,its stressed.

i realise that i have made a really big mistake.because nurmatha holds ALL my secrets...i cannot afford to do anything bad to her.the victim will be me ;[[ if arhx,one day i make her angry,then she will go round the world and spread everything,and in just one short day,the whole world knows my secrets,erm no,by then they will no longer be secrets.but arhs,you see,she can be trusted.;DDeven if i make her angry(which i won't,it will only be the other way round),she won't be so bad to spread my secrets.and oh yes this time round yan li gets to hear my secrets too.

though nurmatha can be trusted with secrets,she cannot be trusted in remembering things.SHE FORGOTTEN TO BRING HER HARRY POTTER BOOKS! hey nurmatha!if you are reading my blog,you better bring it arhx!OR ELSE.i will say you love daniel radcliffe;p

lols today as i was saying the speech day rehearsal,it was held in the hall mahs.then when it was around four something,it started to pour.and the floor ball people came into the hall to practice.and they offed the fan ;[[[ it wasn't so bad because it was raining mahx.it was hot and warm after the rain stopped for quite some time.

HAHA.the assembly performance,me and valerie wong will be holding on the signbaord and covering our faces.please laugh.lols.for me its because i wasn't in cca,i was in the speech day rehearsal,so i didn't get proper role.plus valerie and i will be going around the hall to let people speak in to the mic when they wants to answer questions.;DDD after the rehearsal for the assembly performance,we continued our dance for the teachers' day.OMG its so fun!!!~~~~i love dancing!hahahahah.we,erm or at least me,i myself really enjoyed myself during the rehearsal.HAHA.so fun!!!looking real forward to the performance!!

because my life will feel so empty and meaningless if i were to keep you off my mind.regrets.
i am just following my heart.ask my heart what it is doing and thinking.
no one knows when it expires,but let me enjoy this every moment of you in my mind.

NEW SEATING ARRANGEMENT

whahahah.today is the first day of the new sitting plan.i was pretty excited for the new environment;D so now i am sitting with shin chieh with anita(and zhenghuan) behind me!YAY YAY!anita;DDD sitting there was not bad.shin chieh quite pay attention in class.haha so that helped me a bit.andif anything not sure other than shin chieh,I CAN ASK ANITA!whahahhaa.

HAHA actually i really really really have to thanks changfeng!haha!he is so kind;D that time i told him i didn't like the place where i was sitting,&& he changed it for me!THANKS THANKS THANKS!

lols yesterday our ldds session was pretty rushy.BECAUSE THE NEXT ASSEMBLY IS OURS.this came too suddenly.luckily my group wasn't voted to be in the assembly.PHEW!

when it ended at 4pm,those people who were interested in the dance for teachers day HAVE to stay back to wait for ms.kaur.HAHA.DUH of course i am inside.haha the dance will be a unexpected type of dance.haha but it is definitely going to be nice;D so ya patiently wait for our teachers' day performance;D

LOLS.yan li and i will be the emcees for speech day!i was shocked when ms.kaur told us about it.you mean me,the singlishmorethanenglish marion, is going to be the emcee?OH MANthats gonna be scary!haha and i have got the list of the prize winners.our class has two winners, NEO QIU LI AND LISA CHAN!qiu li real power!she has 5 prizes!WHOO!and lisa,lols i am so sorry i have been influencing her in chinese that her english deproved!>.<

HAHA i have to thanks my darling char siew pau nurmatha for promising me to lend me harry potter books!because when i read order of the phoenix,i couldn't really figured out whats going on.AHHA.THANKS ARHX XING GAN MEI MEI!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIAOJUN!

yay yay!xiaojun today older one year old lerhx!!!whahahha!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

please tell me how many i didn't blog. 3 DAYS!YES!three days!thats so unlike me.haha it was all because my mum rented some hong kong tv series and yeahs,i hvae been spending almost all my time at home watching that show;D so ya this gonna be a pretty long post;D

lets talk about yesterday.yesterday morning boxi came to look for me and told me that ms.rina told her to tell me and brigitte to tell teacher that we have to go for the SYF preview at 12.10pm.this was too much a surprise.yes we were only told yesterday morning and we are going to watch that preview that very afternoon.it wasn't very late was it??

haha.then ya.after that during lit lesson ms.kaur passed me the letter of excuse to be dismiss at 12pm;D and i was told to pass that to brigitte.i was lucky that after literature it was chinese.just tell chao lao shi then can go pass the letter.thats because chao lao shi is such a understanding teacher.LOLS.and valerie and kailin sneaked off with me too.LOL.when we went back chao lao shi was like saying in chinese, "WAA YOUR THREE GO TOGETHER PASS ONE FORM!"LOLS.then although the letter says i can leave at 12pm but i left at 12.15pm.heehee

LOL the preview is nice;D it was actually a full-dress rehearsal for the 5 gold-with-honours.and our teachers has the ticket.so the students who went yesterday were me,brigitte,ridfi,minli and dickson.it was such a surprise that dickson was to go.HAHA.(and duh~~he got left out)LOL.no larhx,just that hes a sec one so we can use it as an excuse.although he kept complaining,but he still followed;D we told him to sit in the front seat,he sat.HAHA.its for his own good.people behind cannot buckle the seat(there are four people behind ;p)but he can ;]the venue of the preview was at hwa chong instituition ;DD

1st play:Ernie's hallucinations --ACS BARKER
this story is about a boy called ernie who has been halluncinating since his mother's death.haha i didn't quite catch the part where they said it was since his mother's death.it was a story narated by ernie.the first scene was a clinic.basically the whole story was about what he hallucinated.but the way they changed the scene, it was damn cool.and their casts were around 20 people.there is 'patients' seating at the back of the stage(upstage).around 10 plus 'halluncinated people'.haha.and when the funky music plays,this people move around carrying props to change the scene.they were like dancing and creating chaos,a organised chaos.the main characters were ernie,his father,the doctor and ernie's grandfather.it the last part there ernie said something like "the halluncinations....i am here,father is here,grandpa is here,but....mum's not here."this came to me that he halluncinated due to his mother's death.suddenly i felt sad for him.LOL.

this play is really nice because it gives you a light feeling in the first place then a bit of sadness at the end.and IT WAS A COMEDY ;D although the cast has some kind of accent,but i though it was pretty OK.i like the bright colours of the props.their acting was real convincing.

2nd play:The chief's son --RI
in this play,there is the chief 's son of a village who love listening to a story-teller telling stories.but his father wanted him to become the world's strongest warrior.in the end he found out that what happened was similar to the story told.

this play,it really impress me on how they used only 4 benches and a cloth as props.IT WAS THIS AMAZING.the 4 benches was at the very first arranged as a stage,then as a room(2 placed vertically to resemble doors and two as beds) and lastly the fighting ring.and i like the way that they started and ended with the wooden sound thing(there,those that people use to clap with during the old days then they will sing in a rhthym).the cloth was first used as a baby then it became water.there was real creative!the chief's son was suppose to be swimming,and you know how he did it?four people was lying on the floor vertically and him horizontally.the four people started rolling on the floor while he was swimming.and YA!HE MOVED!and one of them was acting as a tiger.it was real alike!like he had been possessed!

4thplay:the coffin couldn't go in the hole --holy innocence
(erm paisehhs larhx the title i couldn't really remember the real exact title but it was something coffin and hole.)
it was about a guy worrying all day long because his grandfather's coffin couldn't fit the hole.

this has such a diaos storyline.but it deserved gold-with-honours because of its creativity.there was a part when 4 undertakers spoke at the same time with different language.LOL which sounded gibberish to us.in the later part i think he went mad because they helped him wear a shirt with strings and tied his hands together.isn't this what they do in the mental hospital with the patients there(not that i went there before...haha because i am a tv addict;D)?i concluded that he actually went crazy.the main props was biscuit tins.they had many biscuit tins to form a coffin.then made it into a throne and those dismantled it to resemble a graveyard(tombstones).they left out 2 spaces.in the end the man went to the spot and kind of sit there,so i think he died,right??plus he was worrying about his children not about to recognise his coffin bla bla bla.LOL

i am so sorry i skipped the 2nd and fifth. ;X

hehe.my favourite one was actually the first one;D while brigitte they all loved the second one.ms.kaur also thinks the first one was the best.heyhey don't get me wrong,i was just trying to show that great leos thinks alike.haha.lols.although the first play was a pretty seemed complicated play and almost no moral,but their good acting skills and arrangement of props and people and everything already taught us alot;DD

today we have maths test.i was able to figure out how to do all the question,but i cannot guarantee they were 100% right and that i didn't make any careless mistake ;p

i suddenly had a contented feeling today,after a couple days of not-contentedness.hahah.now i think i shall continue my death note;D because i think watching death note made my IQ rise(xin li zuo yong)i am finishing it real soon!;D

LDDS

aiyo.today derhx ldds is kind of all messed up.
ok firstly yee jeng made an announcement of playing the game
"ANGEL and MORTAL"
haha this game i heard from mader before
nanyang people plays it too
its like everyone will have an angel and a mortal
and everyone will be someone's angel and someone's mortal
the angel,who knows whose his/her mortal is,
will write a letter to him or her.
but the mortal will not know who their angel is.
everyone is not suppose to tell anyone who their mortal is
and this thing will go on for like three months.

then the next thing was we were divided in our committee groups.
so my group,PUBLIC RELATIONS,went to settle the notice board thing
hai today kaliesha not here ;[
but haha we did the notice board and then went to the library
to discuss what else we can do for the notice board because it looked pretty plain.
at 3.30pm we returned back to 1n2.

when i return,jeng was crying ;[[[[
then i came to know that it was all because people were opposing the game.
because some people were like starting on the game thing
like preparing the names or something for people to choose,
jeng threw all of the things that was done away.

I AM NOT HAPPY!because they are not going to play the game
I AM NOT HAPPY!because when some people didn't want the game,there was a vote,and my group wasn't included.
I AM NOT HAPPY!because ldds people decided that they don't like the game when they haven't even tried it.
I AM NOT HAPPY!because i am disappointed.

i am really really sad larhx.they vote then never include our group.earlier on we decided to like take photos for the game then paste it on the noticeboard.and my group was like quite ok with the game.in the end they vote also never wait for us come back.HEY WE ARE ALSO PART OF LDDS CAN!then i also don't understand why some people opposed the game this much when they haven't even tried.if they tried once and can be able to give reasons why they don't want the game.FAIR.but now they haven't even tried and they rejected it.in the first place many people were bored by ldds and now they introduced this game in,they pushed it away.so now what do they actually want?!

ok enough of ldds liaox.haha lets talk about something else.

whahaha yesterday night i was chatting on msn with mr.ong till 12.30am.LOLS.its like so magical larhx.after that one week we also not very close,like only acquaitance.but now in msn like talk until like friends that kind.HAHA;D

YAY today is friday!tmr is sat liaox!can sleep late late and wake up late late!;DDD

<3*

YAY!i created a playlist and now there are more songs for my blog

actually my plant died yesterday night at 7:08:40pm
i suddenly decided to give up.WHAHA
then i was like not sad.
but then somehow i also don't know why,
some things just trigger the plant
and it revived again at 7:42pm
;DDD

whahah yesterday after school,
while waiting for cca to start,
zhenghuan,des,darren,loon rong and han jie played the BARAM game again
LOL then its like they kept laughin.
sat there for 10 minutes or more and haven't start yet.
what a failure!
then in the end like never play alot.
some of them end up playing with water.
LOL

during ldds,
while we were like nothing to do,
pratika,shuhui,kendra,jiahui,brigitte and i(and a junior watching us)
we also played the game again.
whahhaha

lols after ldds went to 7-eleven.
then bought cadbury's boost,chocolate doughnut and bitter chocolate (63% cacao ;D)
i just felt so chocolatey that i wanted to buy lots of chocolate
then when i reached home,
i opened the fridge,
there is sat chocolate brownies -.-
at night my bro bought famous amos' chocolate chips cookies=.=
LOL

;[ yesterday while i was online,alvan also was online.
then i said hi,he never reply me ;[
HAHA.think he is busy bahx if not is he dont want entertain me.
WHHAHA

aiyo i think i a bit siao diao liaox lerhx bahx.
i still miss camp...although other people's camp mood was over long time ago
because there were too much regrets,
we didn't played any games among our group,
there were cheers,but not alot.
i didn't play the flying fox which people said were real fun.
i wasn't in real close terms with any of the instructors
(HEY instructors are the people who makes camp fun)
lastly,i didn't make good use of the time there...
BUT at least we have lots and lots and lots of happy memories together;D
this is one of the factor that makes me miss camp

don't tell me not to miss camp anymore.
i know if i were to camp everyday with the same people
it will not be as fun.
i want to miss camp,because if i stop missing,
i will lose the feeling of missing camp...
and i don't want not to miss camp ;p
so there is no sense in stopping myself from missing camp
when i want to.
its better to let it fade slowly
rather then cutting the roots now.
(LOL sounds kind of chim horhx?)

*i really can't tell which one is true or false.my sixth sense is failing.i can't even judge my own feelings.i don't know whether i love because i love or if i love to love.but there it goes again,everytime i think of you.the reason why is simply because i saw my shadow in you.come to think of it,all this things are too fairytale...*

累了吗　问问你　
累了吗　问自己
故作姿态的你　心跳早已经背叛你的心
故作神秘的你　眼神却总还留着孩子气
想要依靠着你　延续着你给我的氧气
你的固执任性　最怕你突然就说要放弃
是这样天真　是这样心疼　
坚定的眼神有不安的灵魂
是不肯承认　还是我太笨　
两人的缘分　付出才会完整
累了吗　问问你　
累了吗　问自己
故作姿态的你　心跳早已经背叛你的心
故作神秘的你　眼神却总还留着孩子气
想要依靠着你　延续着你给我的氧气
你的固执任性　最怕你突然就说要放弃
是这样天真　是这样心疼　
坚定的眼神有不安的灵魂
是不肯承认　还是我太笨　
两人的缘分　付出才会完整
想要说的话　却不懂表达　
只是朋友吗　你冷冷的回答
这是终点吗　假装我不怕　
唯一的徵兆　是你说过的话
累了吗　问问你　
累了吗　问自己
累了吗　问问你　
累了吗　问自己　

add ons[03:14]:*你会比较喜欢个性像自己的,或是跟自己完全不同的勒?喜欢他,感觉一点都不真实,一点也不切实际,毕竟连面对面都没见过.可是我好象能了解他在想什么,虽然他不知道我是谁.这到底是什么跟什么啊?是不是一时的仰慕给的错觉呢?*(17/10/16 cip project)

LOL i was reading like arranging my post in the labels.and i saw this in a post titled cip project dated on 17/10/06.its like my feelings now larhx.(not 100%,but at least 70%)but i lost the ability to describe liaox.didn't know last time i can do it man!WHAHAH